1 day ago#576147
Warning: going to be WORDSWORDS so just be aware of that. I know people will bitch if I don't point that out.
I'm in such a bad headspace right now and this is honestly one of the most gut wrenching, horrible and difficult things I ever had to make or post on here. I'm actually zoning out and feel like i'm losing all emotion and mental conciousness as i'm typing this shit, I just feel completely out of body almost. My OCD is going fucking mad too. I guess really I only did this shit to myself. I decided to sperg out all those times, create all those Tosses and 3D videos, and put so much effort into some "campaign" or mission to save the Soysphere. I mean, all that shit I said about me wanting to save it and de-goonerify it is absolutely genuine and real. I did feel that way. I legitimately don't even want to make this post, like at all, or tell anyone these things but If I don't tell you now, I never will and if I fucking die, I'll never have the chance to. I just have to get it out of the way, I have to get it out there. This is mostly targeted to the people who know who I am and what I did since late January and all that shit, for those who don't you won't really have any context of this. COLD OPEN AFTER ALL THIS TEXT WALL : I am a gooner. Well kind of. I live in a housing situation that doesn't really permit the gooning life style but because of my family being very restrictive and Normgroid, and they way I was treated, it fucked me up and I ended up having a lot of issues as an adult. The Soysphere to me when I found it was amazing because it promoted all these ideals of traditionalism, not being a Gooner, a sense of like community of people that aren't brownoids, LGBT faggots, trannies, Porn addicts, or gooners. It was just amazing to me to see such a community, because 4cuck was never really like that and same with Kiwifarms. The Soysphere really was the place that ideologically was so against that shit. It was a shelter from the Tranime faggot gooner 4cucks, the Discord and Twitter Branigger loli types, ETC and ETC. It was amazing to me. And so to see this year recently it started having more issues with Goonerbait (namely the FPE and Vlodette stuff) I was genuinely so heartbroken, enraged, depressed, and horrified. Because It was like the last fucking place on the internet to me that was an escape from that in my life. The feeling of seeing it happening was genuinely so crushing and defeating. I felt everything closing in on me and like I couldn't escape. I lashed out because of how fucking pissed it made me seeing this shit happening. It was like watching a friend being murdered. I wanted a place to escape my addiction and now that was gone. I had nowhere to go, nowhere to escape it. I have no fucking escape from it. People tell me to STOP TAKING SHIT SERIOUSLY BRO ITS JUST A MEME SITE. YOU DON'T FUCKING GET IT, You don't know my life or the shit I go through. You don't understand some people literally have not much fucking else in their lives. This is one of my few escapes. Why else do you think I take it so seriously? I can't even form a coherent point right now for this entire thing. My mind is literally so fucked right now even telling everyone this bullshit. Was it a persona? I don't fucking know anymore. But that's the reality of it.
I'm in such a bad headspace right now and this is honestly one of the most gut wrenching, horrible and difficult things I ever had to make or post on here. I'm actually zoning out and feel like i'm losing all emotion and mental conciousness as i'm typing this shit, I just feel completely out of body almost. My OCD is going fucking mad too. I guess really I only did this shit to myself. I decided to sperg out all those times, create all those Tosses and 3D videos, and put so much effort into some "campaign" or mission to save the Soysphere. I mean, all that shit I said about me wanting to save it and de-goonerify it is absolutely genuine and real. I did feel that way. I legitimately don't even want to make this post, like at all, or tell anyone these things but If I don't tell you now, I never will and if I fucking die, I'll never have the chance to. I just have to get it out of the way, I have to get it out there. This is mostly targeted to the people who know who I am and what I did since late January and all that shit, for those who don't you won't really have any context of this. COLD OPEN AFTER ALL THIS TEXT WALL : I am a gooner. Well kind of. I live in a housing situation that doesn't really permit the gooning life style but because of my family being very restrictive and Normgroid, and they way I was treated, it fucked me up and I ended up having a lot of issues as an adult. The Soysphere to me when I found it was amazing because it promoted all these ideals of traditionalism, not being a Gooner, a sense of like community of people that aren't brownoids, LGBT faggots, trannies, Porn addicts, or gooners. It was just amazing to me to see such a community, because 4cuck was never really like that and same with Kiwifarms. The Soysphere really was the place that ideologically was so against that shit. It was a shelter from the Tranime faggot gooner 4cucks, the Discord and Twitter Branigger loli types, ETC and ETC. It was amazing to me. And so to see this year recently it started having more issues with Goonerbait (namely the FPE and Vlodette stuff) I was genuinely so heartbroken, enraged, depressed, and horrified. Because It was like the last fucking place on the internet to me that was an escape from that in my life. The feeling of seeing it happening was genuinely so crushing and defeating. I felt everything closing in on me and like I couldn't escape. I lashed out because of how fucking pissed it made me seeing this shit happening. It was like watching a friend being murdered. I wanted a place to escape my addiction and now that was gone. I had nowhere to go, nowhere to escape it. I have no fucking escape from it. People tell me to STOP TAKING SHIT SERIOUSLY BRO ITS JUST A MEME SITE. YOU DON'T FUCKING GET IT, You don't know my life or the shit I go through. You don't understand some people literally have not much fucking else in their lives. This is one of my few escapes. Why else do you think I take it so seriously? I can't even form a coherent point right now for this entire thing. My mind is literally so fucked right now even telling everyone this bullshit. Was it a persona? I don't fucking know anymore. But that's the reality of it.
nan3
hello
1 day ago#576155
take a break from the internetWarning: going to be WORDSWORDS so just be aware of that. I know people will bitch if I don't point that out.
I'm in such a bad headspace right now and this is honestly one of the most gut wrenching, horrible and difficult things I ever had to make or post on here. I'm actually zoning out and feel like i'm losing all emotion and mental conciousness as i'm typing this shit, I just feel completely out of body almost. My OCD is going fucking mad too. I guess really I only did this shit to myself. I decided to sperg out all those times, create all those Tosses and 3D videos, and put so much effort into some "campaign" or mission to save the Soysphere. I mean, all that shit I said about me wanting to save it and de-goonerify it is absolutely genuine and real. I did feel that way. I legitimately don't even want to make this post, like at all, or tell anyone these things but If I don't tell you now, I never will and if I fucking die, I'll never have the chance to. I just have to get it out of the way, I have to get it out there. This is mostly targeted to the people who know who I am and what I did since late January and all that shit, for those who don't you won't really have any context of this. COLD OPEN AFTER ALL THIS TEXT WALL : I am a gooner. Well kind of. I live in a housing situation that doesn't really permit the gooning life style but because of my family being very restrictive and Normgroid, and they way I was treated, it fucked me up and I ended up having a lot of issues as an adult. The Soysphere to me when I found it was amazing because it promoted all these ideals of traditionalism, not being a Gooner, a sense of like community of people that aren't brownoids, LGBT faggots, trannies, Porn addicts, or gooners. It was just amazing to me to see such a community, because 4cuck was never really like that and same with Kiwifarms. The Soysphere really was the place that ideologically was so against that shit. It was a shelter from the Tranime faggot gooner 4cucks, the Discord and Twitter Branigger loli types, ETC and ETC. It was amazing to me. And so to see this year recently it started having more issues with Goonerbait (namely the FPE and Vlodette stuff) I was genuinely so heartbroken, enraged, depressed, and horrified. Because It was like the last fucking place on the internet to me that was an escape from that in my life. The feeling of seeing it happening was genuinely so crushing and defeating. I felt everything closing in on me and like I couldn't escape. I lashed out because of how fucking pissed it made me seeing this shit happening. It was like watching a friend being murdered. I wanted a place to escape my addiction and now that was gone. I had nowhere to go, nowhere to escape it. I have no fucking escape from it. People tell me to STOP TAKING SHIT SERIOUSLY BRO ITS JUST A MEME SITE. YOU DON'T FUCKING GET IT, You don't know my life or the shit I go through. You don't understand some people literally have not much fucking else in their lives. This is one of my few escapes. Why else do you think I take it so seriously? I can't even form a coherent point right now for this entire thing. My mind is literally so fucked right now even telling everyone this bullshit. Was it a persona? I don't fucking know anymore. But that's the reality of it.
1 day ago#576161
UPDATE: I cut off my penis
GiantTortoise
nigga im a tortoise
1 day ago#576186
Is this from @MexiaryanGeronto
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