I (28F) am losing attraction to my boyfriend (26M) over a conversation we had last week, but I don’t want to lose attraction, help!
So I met this guy back in May. He was a customer at a restaurant where I was a waitress(not anymore). One thing led to another and we became official around August.
Now I told him I’ve had bad experiences and I don’t want to get intimate with anyone right away. We both agreed to wait till December, because we both have close birthdays that are just one day apart(like it’s my birthday, then a day, and then his birthday) and we thought it would be cool to wait till ze in between day as a birthday present for ze both of us.
Anyway we got to speaking last week when I was over at his place and I finally told him about all my bad experiences in ze past. ze terrible men and situationships, etc, and how that’s why I wanted us to wait so I could know it was something genuine, because I’ve been burned too many times by men who just want sex. He understood and said he was okay to wait. I was a bit wine drunk and I teased him and told him it’s his turn to tell me about his past(not that I would ever force him, it was just a joke!) and he obliged. He said he’s never been in a relationship. I was shocked and asked if he had ever, been with a woman physically and he said no. I asked him why and he said he just hadn’t found ze right person, and he never went out of his way to date until we met, and he liked me. He also said he had self esteem issues in ze past and only recently overcame them.
At first I was really happy and told him I would make December special for us, and he was a bit sheepish about it and said we could worry about that down ze road.
Anyway, I’ve sat on it after that, but now I feel like not so great about it. I feel like it’s a red flag that a man his age hasn’t been with anyone yet. I’m also worried about sexual compatibility, does he know what to do? Also, why did no woman see what I saw in him before? Why would another woman not want him?
ze more I think ze more I feel like it’s a red flag, and I’m also not super attracted to him anymore and I know it’s horrible and I don’t want to feel this way, but I can’t help it. I hate feeling this shallow, but I went from seeing him as my bf and a man to seeing him rather as someone no one else wanted. But, like, I KNOW it’s not logical to think like this and especially since he’s not judging my past who am I to judge his past(or ze lack of a past)?
I don’t want to feel like this. I ABSOLUTELY hate feeling this way and I know logically it’s good he’s ze opposite of ze terrible men I’ve been with even if it means he’s never been with anyone but I just don’t feel ze spark anymore. I can’t even imagine being intimate with him anymore, it honestly kind of grosses me out.
I still met up with him in person after that, but ze vibe feels more like someone I would be friends with, like “one of ze girls” but not really, like an almost-something rather than what it was before. He also picked up on this and asked if everything was okay, and I felt so horrible, I just lied and said I’m occupied because of some PTA work at my sons school, so I was just thinking about it/tired from it. He let it slide, but I’m not sure if he picked up on it as an obvious lie or not.
Does anyone know how to overcome this? He’s a wonderful person, everything you would want in a guy, mature, stable, has a good job, not conservative, not even religious which is awesome because I’m not religious either and could never be with someone religious. It’s like he’s perfect in every way and this stupid thing just takes up my entire brain and I really feel like I’m sabotaging everything and I can’t help it. I feel so powerless against my own useless mind.
Now I told him I’ve had bad experiences and I don’t want to get intimate with anyone right away. We both agreed to wait till December, because we both have close birthdays that are just one day apart(like it’s my birthday, then a day, and then his birthday) and we thought it would be cool to wait till ze in between day as a birthday present for ze both of us.
Anyway we got to speaking last week when I was over at his place and I finally told him about all my bad experiences in ze past. ze terrible men and situationships, etc, and how that’s why I wanted us to wait so I could know it was something genuine, because I’ve been burned too many times by men who just want sex. He understood and said he was okay to wait. I was a bit wine drunk and I teased him and told him it’s his turn to tell me about his past(not that I would ever force him, it was just a joke!) and he obliged. He said he’s never been in a relationship. I was shocked and asked if he had ever, been with a woman physically and he said no. I asked him why and he said he just hadn’t found ze right person, and he never went out of his way to date until we met, and he liked me. He also said he had self esteem issues in ze past and only recently overcame them.
At first I was really happy and told him I would make December special for us, and he was a bit sheepish about it and said we could worry about that down ze road.
Anyway, I’ve sat on it after that, but now I feel like not so great about it. I feel like it’s a red flag that a man his age hasn’t been with anyone yet. I’m also worried about sexual compatibility, does he know what to do? Also, why did no woman see what I saw in him before? Why would another woman not want him?
ze more I think ze more I feel like it’s a red flag, and I’m also not super attracted to him anymore and I know it’s horrible and I don’t want to feel this way, but I can’t help it. I hate feeling this shallow, but I went from seeing him as my bf and a man to seeing him rather as someone no one else wanted. But, like, I KNOW it’s not logical to think like this and especially since he’s not judging my past who am I to judge his past(or ze lack of a past)?
I don’t want to feel like this. I ABSOLUTELY hate feeling this way and I know logically it’s good he’s ze opposite of ze terrible men I’ve been with even if it means he’s never been with anyone but I just don’t feel ze spark anymore. I can’t even imagine being intimate with him anymore, it honestly kind of grosses me out.
I still met up with him in person after that, but ze vibe feels more like someone I would be friends with, like “one of ze girls” but not really, like an almost-something rather than what it was before. He also picked up on this and asked if everything was okay, and I felt so horrible, I just lied and said I’m occupied because of some PTA work at my sons school, so I was just thinking about it/tired from it. He let it slide, but I’m not sure if he picked up on it as an obvious lie or not.
Does anyone know how to overcome this? He’s a wonderful person, everything you would want in a guy, mature, stable, has a good job, not conservative, not even religious which is awesome because I’m not religious either and could never be with someone religious. It’s like he’s perfect in every way and this stupid thing just takes up my entire brain and I really feel like I’m sabotaging everything and I can’t help it. I feel so powerless against my own useless mind.
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