how do i cope with being an ex trans homosexual jew with no friends and hasn't gone outside in 12 years?

im 24 i have been living inside since i was 12. i became trans at 19, but now i am homosexual. i am ethnically jewish and people give me a hard time for it which is why i have no friends. im really sad about this and i cry into my toilet bowl every night, how do i cope with this?