Sometimes I'm having a good day, then I see things that remind me I'm a fucking clittycel

Watched a nice fun movie earlier, chilled with some Gems on the 'Ru, had a cool walk in the park. Was feeling decent and happy. I decided I'd head to the shop to see what's in stock and what's going on. Within 2 minutes I saw a total SISA with a bombshell ass body, and a child in the cart with the most REDDITOR looking ass nigga as her husband. I mean this guy was straight up wikipedia moderator status Redditor. My fucking clitty was leaking instantly and I needed to go to the cafe and get a coffee to chill the fuck out. I seethed internally for a while and imagined myself turning into Nate, like in those Natetoks how he acts and start doing something gemmy like that. I don't know. The entire rest of the time in the store, after that incident all I could think about was Soysphere, Soyspeak jokes, how much of a clittycel I am. But, I did eventually calm down. Took a bit, but I calmed down and things were fine. Then on the way home, OHHH wouldn't you guess...... I SAW THE EXACT SAME FUCKING THING HAPPEN AGAIN, the exact same fucking situation with another heckin SISA and this Redditor ass nigger. I was fucking seething and I fucking had it. I fucking wanted to go apeshit nigger style. I came inside and sat in my bathroom for a while to calm down. Now I came on here and yeah. I had to get this out.