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also now my 'tok has for some reason led me to the russian side of "gore 'tok" in inverted colors (and although i have been desensitized by gore, not trying to sound edgy or a pathetic loser, ive had internet access since i was like 4-5 so ive seen lots of things online) which i dont recall knowing how the fuck i began to see that shit on my 'tok page.

fuck is tok even about

'tok (or tiktok for the immigrants) happenings is that theres a bunch of bullshit there and larping for the largest part. Since i barely use it i only followed like 7 people atm that do soy-related stuff that isnt larping but that hasnt really changed what the fuck my feed has become. Like legitimately, the last time i checked on it was like maybe nearly 2 weeks ago or so (or maybe 2 weeks or so) and i decided to just today and aside from following one additional person the rest of it has just become a huge landmine of "wow a gemmy tok" to now watching actual 'O.

Like I have a personal account where my feed is better (just a bunch of bullshit like actual memes, stupid things, old people yelling about shit and all that crap) but i am still confused how the hell my own soy 'tok feed became so fucking bizarre.

Pokusa↗

kendohighway↗

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Pokusa↗

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also now my 'tok has for some reason led me to the russian side of "gore 'tok" in inverted colors (and although i have been desensitized by gore, not trying to sound edgy or a pathetic loser, ive had internet access since i was like 4-5 so ive seen lots of things online) which i dont recall knowing how the fuck i began to see that shit on my 'tok page.

fuck is tok even about

'tok (or tiktok for the immigrants) happenings is that theres a bunch of bullshit there and larping for the largest part. Since i barely use it i only followed like 7 people atm that do soy-related stuff that isnt larping but that hasnt really changed what the fuck my feed has become. Like legitimately, the last time i checked on it was like maybe nearly 2 weeks ago or so (or maybe 2 weeks or so) and i decided to just today and aside from following one additional person the rest of it has just become a huge landmine of "wow a gemmy tok" to now watching actual 'O.
Like I have a personal account where my feed is better (just a bunch of bullshit like actual memes, stupid things, old people yelling about shit and all that crap) but i am still confused how the hell my own soy 'tok feed became so fucking bizarre.

I knew thee devious shit on the tok, personally I broke my short form content addiction years ago and for the better

Why does any form of media I like get appropriated by trannies?

had another scare; the hospital near me called me about my father.
Then it didnt click till i told my mother about, we panicked (i was in that "i didnt think of it" too much)
called my father, hes fine as a dime
The call was just about financial expenses when my dad landed on his dome at work

Pokusa↗

had another scare; the hospital near me called me about my father.
Then it didnt click till i told my mother about, we panicked (i was in that "i didnt think of it" too much)
called my father, hes fine as a dime
The call was just about financial expenses when my dad landed on his dome at work

glad he's fine!

I saw the goddamn rats again in my garage, i saw one run across my garage door frame, i should have went after it with the rake but i thought my autism dumbass mind thought it was good to point at it as if to signal my dogs to get it but as usual shit didnt happen! Im so stupid

Alright buckle up, time for a long thought post here, shit nobody cares about but here we go:

A thought that i hate is that i do have a lot of non-soy related animated or drawn works i want to do, and although i have mentioned on a thread a little while back that my art style non-soyjak-wise is tranny-like (which i have grown into acceptance) is that the one thing i fear is, if by some stroke of luck, my works get popular or known, it will be overrun by trannies, xitter or 'tok tourists or rabid fans, or the like. Again, its a scenario i think but it does annoy and scare me a bit.

Obviously id go under a moniker because "hurr durr my favorite artist and series showrunner was pokusa, a friend of the infamous hacker snarkydotsnappy and said these things" but at the same time yknow, i have a lot of ideas and inspirations that go into my works (soy-related stuff as well) but its something ill have to face eventually. Who knows, maybe after i had my good run with the soysphere ill be off somewhere drawing crap for a living (hopefully not the degenerate kind though id be lying if i did draw some; honesty is my policy, plus i dont draw the more evil degenerate shit most of these nsfw artists do nowadays as i have standards like a moralGOD though granted i dont really see it as a career either just once a blue moon), but also like, suppose i was popular in this scenario with my non-soy series and degenerate fans and orbiters and creeps spawned from it, and some nusoi thinks its epi or stupid or whatever and launches a /raid/ on it, not knowing its me, like damn i gotta make an announcement without blowing my cover yknow?

I dont know, i get these random stupid thoughts about random things i like, interest me or whatever but like, yknow, i cannot really do that much with what i could control in these scenarios, "wary" fantasies or whatever.

I know its a bunch of shit i spewed out but all in all, i just have to face it if it occurs (Im not sad or whatever or depressed as i write this, just something i wanna be honest with)



TL;DR - I have a bad feeling that if my non-soy works get popular somehow, they will be appropriated by trannies/foodists/rabid fans and i could get misinterpreted for a raid where im gonna have to be secretly open that i am the creator of my works.

I keep forgetting i do amateur electronic music as a hobby.
My current longest song i made is around 10 minutes and 55 seconds.