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Today I went on a geography field trip, there was only 3 other people including my crush. This morning she followed me as soon as I got up out of the room to wait for the bus, and started talking to me, but because I am an obtuse retard my mind went blank and I couldn't carry on the conversation despite thinking all Easter about what I can talk with her about. Thankfully it wasn't too awkward as the minibus came soon after, there were 4 rows of seats, 2 across and then a single seat on the other side of the aisle, so 12 seats in total. This meant that every person on the minibus could have an entire row of seats to themselves, but for some reason she sat next to me a seat apart despite there being plenty of other seats. When we started driving I pretended to fall asleep so it wasn't awkward. When we got to the place she stayed close to me, again I wasn't really sure how to talk to her so I kinda gave one-word answers but as the day went on we got better and we were talking properly. She is very kind and friendly and funny, and the more I've thought about her the more I've realised that just having her as a friend would be really nice, since we got on so well. But that's so hard to do, every single moment I was with her I just wanted to throw my arms around her and pull her close, I've had crushes before but never feelings this strong. Which is why I'm reluctant about making any advances in case they were to ruin our new friendship, I doubt that if I confessed to loving her she would feel comfortable having me as a friend still, which is fair enough. When we had lunch she gave me some cookies, and whilst we were walking together she made a joke about her tits. We basically stayed together the entire time just talking to each other and messing about, she is interested in aeroplanes and trains and tranime, which is good because I really like infrastructure shit too so I was able to talk about that. But I mostly just listened to her which I like, on the bus back she was telling me about her family. I am mildly concerned because whilst she is autistic, EVERY SINGLE ONE of her siblings and cousins are mid to low-functioning autists, it's genuinely impressive how strong the sperg genes must be in her bloodline. As such I am fearful of what our combined DNA could create, but I figure that if the genes for brain function can be that unstable in a bad way they can also go the opposite way; basically I predict that if we were to have kids for each low-functioning nonverbalDEITY we create there will be an 180IQ Anglo-Celtic-Bell Beaker-Corded Ware-North Sea-Shintasa-Yamayna-Sredny Strog-Maritime Philosopher King to balance it out.
>saar stop being so narcy and only caring about yourself saar
Ik and I'm weary of how much I'm using "I" but idk how to explain it better, I do care about her a lot more than I care about myself