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4 weeks ago#51975
July 7th, 2025: Woke up at 6:30am and decided to cook 2 softboiled eggs and have 2 slices of toast, on one slice I put blackberry preservatives and on the other I put vegemite. At 6:17am, James texted me:
<How's everything going up there?
I replied:
>It's going good, but I have been busy every day of the week
I emptied out the coffee filter in my coffee machine to find out some mold was starting to grow, I washed it out and then found some ground up Black Rifle Coffee and used that with a new paper filter. I had that and drank it until 7:50am when I had to get on the bus. I took it down and got in early. I brewed the coffee and then drank some for myself. At 8:35am I started on my registration for the Lac du Flambeau trip in late August. I texted the priest:
>Ok I got registered!
I then walked into the meeting room and got ready to record my CEO’s ramblings, some of the others talked before the CEO got in late and this is what he had to say:
“...but at least once, so I apologize about that. Uhm, I'm pretty much in sync with all the directors and wanting what I was thinking this weekend. I went to Summerfest and I was working with some community members. Well, basically I invited them there, and we talked and whatnot, and then I let them go and have fun. But I decided to stay there a little bit 'cause it was really hot and they had this nice shade spot, so I sat there for a while and I thought about things. And so I came up with some words that as we close to our next budget cycle in October, I wanted to let you know uhm about how we deal with the unknown. It makes people nervous, and so before I give you the words that I had to help you deal with those things, in July and August and September, that's usually when we get all our funding. directions and we can sometimes, when they give us a budget can they ask for more, sometimes. This year is probably going to be highly unlikely that we can ask for more. But you never know. don't say no, let them say no, is what you have to do, right? So we'll go ahead and do our ask, even though that's something that it seems unlikely. So I think acronyms are giving us numbers and we have to actually take a look at those for next year. We'll get some numbers, probably from acronym at the end of the month. That's what I'm presuming, because they have Latinx lady and myself going there to fly out on the 29th…” - The CEO
“Mhm” - Latinx lady
“..And we'll be there through the end of the month, 31st, we'll come back. Hopefully, they'll have some more definitive answers by then, but most likely they'll give us more of a solid direction, and then when they give us them, we'll use, they want I'm something solid. So [acronym] has been telling us things, but until we sign the acronym, the numbers won't be solid, so essentially what it is is executive management and myself install it. Operations will take a look at the numbers as they roll in and we'll also talk to the directors to say, let's here's where I'm thinking. Just like I asked them to give me options or recommendations, I will also do that as well. But ultimately the puck stops here, so I'll have to decide on things for the budget. That's the normal thing that we do every year anyway. So we'll be doing that and probably, what is it, August is our hmm… annual budget annual board meeting. That's when I'll finalize the budget, I guess…” - The CEO
“In September!” - Latinx lady
“... In September, so it varies based on availability to board members. So we kind of have a form. So that all being said, the times are coming, where I'll be making some decisions. Now, what I'd like you guys to do is to continue with your thoughts with acronym services, you guys have start polishing up the ideas. What I mean by that is start thinking about where you would think the funding would come from. I know that's not your bailwig because you guys are ample meters, but it doesn't hurt for us to think that way, so it makes it easier for us all of us when we actually make a structural decision, and then we've kind of done it together, right? You've give me your feedback and I'll tell you how real that is, based on what I know. And a lot of the preliminary numbers and discussions that are going on, they're not ready for public consumption. The granting agencies are trying to decide how much money they're giving to each of the agencies, not just IIW, but the other agencies. And they're not just talking about resettlement agencies. They handle all the family matters, you. The department children and family. So they have to look at the entire budget and they have look what’s coming from the state as well. I can't remember what cycle we are in for the state. They have the buying. Is this they make the budget it next year?” - The CEO
“This year. And I think they just passed two years.” - Latinx lady
“Okay, so acronym should have a better idea of what they're gonna do with all the agencies throughout the state as they move forward, so we'll listen very carefully to what they're saying and then push back if we can until I have some fine numbers and structure, I'll give that to you. But I know that we've been riding right now on a really good pace, what I mean by that is that we are the strongest acronym. There is no doubt. But we do have to react to the budget when it does come, so we'll have more definitive answers in the coming months. So in the meantime, what I thought I would do is I would just tell you what I was thinking about over the weekend, and this is like what I'm about to say is from years of hearing it over and over again, from others who are wise in seasons. There's people that are way older than me and a lot more experienced and by the way, on the 14th, one of my mentors is going to show up here. Uhm I'm working on him to see if he has interests in the board and if he is interested in funding, or if he has other people that he can, you know, provide funding to. But since he's one of my mentors, I thought of bringing him to show the entire operations to him because I'm using a lot of management principles from him to actually guide the workforce here, so he's really interested in that. He's a really good guy. His name is [name 1]. saw on the 14th, you guys will see him. a lot came from him, and [name 2], you guys don't know him. [name 1] at [college acronym] but what I'm about to say, it deserves to be repeated and passed on. So those of you are managers, Take note of these words and then try to incorporate and make them their own. Those are your coordinators, you're about to be managers. Think about these things, because you will have to learn how to help guide the overall emotional state of the organization. So basically, sometimes you feel like nothing good is happening to you, but it's because you are the good and the blessing that happens to others. That is a statement that I heard from [name 1]. He probably doesn't remember saying it. I think his wisdom would just roll off him, but when you think about that, we come here day in and day, no matter what we feel like, right? So you're giving your all, you're showing up in spite of what's going on around you. That is goodness. That is a blessing. We are here for others. We are the goodness and the blessing that happens to others. So, if you have anxiety, think about that because that'll help you kind of realize that you, I'm feeling kind of wonky, but I'm going to make somebody else feel better. In the process of doing that, you'll actually feel better already. But what I can actually say here is that you guys are solid, you guys are consistent. Even when you're tired, I've seen you guys, wasn't in December and ran all those arrivals. You guys are tired. Even when you don't have everything you need, even when those we serve are mean to, we've had some mean clients. Even when those we serve are mean to us, even when those around us may be, know whether or not knowing you're hurting us. In particular, we have landlords that are hot and cold. Sometimes they're like, ‘Hey, I love you guys in the there're like, the heck are you guys doing?’” - The CEO
(POST SPLIT INTO MULTIPLE PARTS DUE TO WORD COUNT)
<How's everything going up there?
I replied:
>It's going good, but I have been busy every day of the week
I emptied out the coffee filter in my coffee machine to find out some mold was starting to grow, I washed it out and then found some ground up Black Rifle Coffee and used that with a new paper filter. I had that and drank it until 7:50am when I had to get on the bus. I took it down and got in early. I brewed the coffee and then drank some for myself. At 8:35am I started on my registration for the Lac du Flambeau trip in late August. I texted the priest:
>Ok I got registered!
I then walked into the meeting room and got ready to record my CEO’s ramblings, some of the others talked before the CEO got in late and this is what he had to say:
“...but at least once, so I apologize about that. Uhm, I'm pretty much in sync with all the directors and wanting what I was thinking this weekend. I went to Summerfest and I was working with some community members. Well, basically I invited them there, and we talked and whatnot, and then I let them go and have fun. But I decided to stay there a little bit 'cause it was really hot and they had this nice shade spot, so I sat there for a while and I thought about things. And so I came up with some words that as we close to our next budget cycle in October, I wanted to let you know uhm about how we deal with the unknown. It makes people nervous, and so before I give you the words that I had to help you deal with those things, in July and August and September, that's usually when we get all our funding. directions and we can sometimes, when they give us a budget can they ask for more, sometimes. This year is probably going to be highly unlikely that we can ask for more. But you never know. don't say no, let them say no, is what you have to do, right? So we'll go ahead and do our ask, even though that's something that it seems unlikely. So I think acronyms are giving us numbers and we have to actually take a look at those for next year. We'll get some numbers, probably from acronym at the end of the month. That's what I'm presuming, because they have Latinx lady and myself going there to fly out on the 29th…” - The CEO
“Mhm” - Latinx lady
“..And we'll be there through the end of the month, 31st, we'll come back. Hopefully, they'll have some more definitive answers by then, but most likely they'll give us more of a solid direction, and then when they give us them, we'll use, they want I'm something solid. So [acronym] has been telling us things, but until we sign the acronym, the numbers won't be solid, so essentially what it is is executive management and myself install it. Operations will take a look at the numbers as they roll in and we'll also talk to the directors to say, let's here's where I'm thinking. Just like I asked them to give me options or recommendations, I will also do that as well. But ultimately the puck stops here, so I'll have to decide on things for the budget. That's the normal thing that we do every year anyway. So we'll be doing that and probably, what is it, August is our hmm… annual budget annual board meeting. That's when I'll finalize the budget, I guess…” - The CEO
“In September!” - Latinx lady
“... In September, so it varies based on availability to board members. So we kind of have a form. So that all being said, the times are coming, where I'll be making some decisions. Now, what I'd like you guys to do is to continue with your thoughts with acronym services, you guys have start polishing up the ideas. What I mean by that is start thinking about where you would think the funding would come from. I know that's not your bailwig because you guys are ample meters, but it doesn't hurt for us to think that way, so it makes it easier for us all of us when we actually make a structural decision, and then we've kind of done it together, right? You've give me your feedback and I'll tell you how real that is, based on what I know. And a lot of the preliminary numbers and discussions that are going on, they're not ready for public consumption. The granting agencies are trying to decide how much money they're giving to each of the agencies, not just IIW, but the other agencies. And they're not just talking about resettlement agencies. They handle all the family matters, you. The department children and family. So they have to look at the entire budget and they have look what’s coming from the state as well. I can't remember what cycle we are in for the state. They have the buying. Is this they make the budget it next year?” - The CEO
“This year. And I think they just passed two years.” - Latinx lady
“Okay, so acronym should have a better idea of what they're gonna do with all the agencies throughout the state as they move forward, so we'll listen very carefully to what they're saying and then push back if we can until I have some fine numbers and structure, I'll give that to you. But I know that we've been riding right now on a really good pace, what I mean by that is that we are the strongest acronym. There is no doubt. But we do have to react to the budget when it does come, so we'll have more definitive answers in the coming months. So in the meantime, what I thought I would do is I would just tell you what I was thinking about over the weekend, and this is like what I'm about to say is from years of hearing it over and over again, from others who are wise in seasons. There's people that are way older than me and a lot more experienced and by the way, on the 14th, one of my mentors is going to show up here. Uhm I'm working on him to see if he has interests in the board and if he is interested in funding, or if he has other people that he can, you know, provide funding to. But since he's one of my mentors, I thought of bringing him to show the entire operations to him because I'm using a lot of management principles from him to actually guide the workforce here, so he's really interested in that. He's a really good guy. His name is [name 1]. saw on the 14th, you guys will see him. a lot came from him, and [name 2], you guys don't know him. [name 1] at [college acronym] but what I'm about to say, it deserves to be repeated and passed on. So those of you are managers, Take note of these words and then try to incorporate and make them their own. Those are your coordinators, you're about to be managers. Think about these things, because you will have to learn how to help guide the overall emotional state of the organization. So basically, sometimes you feel like nothing good is happening to you, but it's because you are the good and the blessing that happens to others. That is a statement that I heard from [name 1]. He probably doesn't remember saying it. I think his wisdom would just roll off him, but when you think about that, we come here day in and day, no matter what we feel like, right? So you're giving your all, you're showing up in spite of what's going on around you. That is goodness. That is a blessing. We are here for others. We are the goodness and the blessing that happens to others. So, if you have anxiety, think about that because that'll help you kind of realize that you, I'm feeling kind of wonky, but I'm going to make somebody else feel better. In the process of doing that, you'll actually feel better already. But what I can actually say here is that you guys are solid, you guys are consistent. Even when you're tired, I've seen you guys, wasn't in December and ran all those arrivals. You guys are tired. Even when you don't have everything you need, even when those we serve are mean to, we've had some mean clients. Even when those we serve are mean to us, even when those around us may be, know whether or not knowing you're hurting us. In particular, we have landlords that are hot and cold. Sometimes they're like, ‘Hey, I love you guys in the there're like, the heck are you guys doing?’” - The CEO
(POST SPLIT INTO MULTIPLE PARTS DUE TO WORD COUNT)
4 weeks ago#51982
July 7th, 2025 (Continued):
“Yeah” - Elon
“You know, that kind of thing. They really mean sometimes. Money makes people say things in a cash form, so, but we do what we can, when we can, or we prepare to do what we can, when we can. No, that's an important state to say, because we've started to look at this, back in February of really kind of diving in to make ourselves pay for service. Think about how we're going to do that. We're preparing for it. We've looked at quality, you know, the [acronym] team just came through with flying colors. corrective actions per se. So we had a nice discussion with them afterwards. I think I've talked about them last week, where we offered to actually help other places to do financial management. so they like that. So let's take a little bit more about how we see it applies here. For example, I'm going to get a little bit more detail on some of one of the things that is a challenge for an agency. For example, we're working on referrals and how we do referrals. We need to know what each of us are doing, so we know where to refer. The Monday meetings that we're doing right now. Exactly, that's what we start hearing one of the people do. You find out what their scope of services is without looking at the [acronym]. But you can look at the [acronym] or out there for you to see, right? So we take a look at those, then listen to what people are doing, and that's important. We need to know what others are doing so we understand each of our parts. So we do not do others' work. So when we refer to them, they shouldn't do our work. I mean, when we're referring to them, we shouldn't do their work, in other words, it’s really easy for us to start doing somebody else's work, because we're taking care of the clients. So that's called division of labor. It's not a personal thing, and that's where the friction comes from. You can see how that works now. You start doing something, you should do and you go, ‘Hey, what are you doing that for? Or you come up to the line and then you stop, and then the person you refer to goes, well, why aren't you doing this?‘ And that's not just internal. That's external as well, because we work with medical places. They want us to do things for them. So we have to draw the line. So that's where the friction occurs. So we just have to make sure that we know what others are doing so we can understand each of our parts. but rather give them work so they can fulfill their scope of services. So for example, when I say we need to rally around a particular program, we do everything that we can. without doing their work, to boost their numbers, because one of the things, the primary thing for our contracts is enrollment, right? If we enroll, we get the number, we get paid. If we actually do services for the big deal, we have to do services with them, we have to show that we're doing that. And then if we have quality in those services, then they'll keep on giving us money. So that's the reason why all that works that way. So. But we need to be flexible, so if others need help, our supervisors and managers can actually temporarily say, hey, Helline, why don't you go ahead and do some more. work with Eanie? Cause you understand all that. That might happen. You know, how might need to rally that far. But your supervisor will let you know. So let's coordinate our work and allow assistance to happen to others, when we're directed to do that. But remember, the primary thing is you have your own scope and services, make sure you understand those things. And one of what we could do to actually help with this division of labor is when you get to that point where we're a division where you see you come up to a line and say, you could actually tell somebody, ‘Here's some really cool contacts for you to enroll your services. By the way, I've done everything up to what I can right now.’ If you need more help, you can talk to my supervisor, but come up to this point. I've done everything I do up to this point. If we have the same kind of language as syntax, we'll all start to hear and see those the visions. And if there's something really simple, bio means take care of the client, but keep your your supervisor informed. That's that flexibility thing as long as it happens all the time, and it becomes more of the pattern, that's not a big deal. But really rely on your managers and your directors for those lanes, but then the directors are gonna ones that are gonna be the ones that blur the lanes a little bit when we need to really bolster. Like, for example, if [acronym] gets turned on big time, we might be restructured in a way where we don't have that many [acronym], and those who used to do an [acronym], we might be tapping on the show, hey, we're gonna have to reactivate for this for a period of time. Fortunately, we have a lot of good categories in our time periods that we can actually pick from. So just get the permission or the direction and do that, and then move forward. So this is going to become more important when we get into October, November. Especially like if we activate fee for services and we're starting to do something new that we haven't done before., what I call above the line below the line, above the line is we get paid by our current below line, we get paid by a fee for service receiver, or a client, or another business that we work for that impacts our clients. So, make sure that we document everything we do. Even if you're doing a fee for services, just because you don't have a grant. Make sure you document things. Have the case notes in case somebody gets sick, they can pick up the ball. Just by looking at the case. So we're going to have our primary assignments for our jobs and we'll probably restructure when it comes to funding as we get some definitive direction when I decide things. Now, let me talk about that a little bit. I've done a lot of restructuring in my past a lot. and then I've had really big organizations work for me. When you have a lot of layers, it forwards you to do things in isolation. Like for example, a really hard calls, usually I'll be doing that in my office, really looking at it really closely. But we're a small organization, and we operate more like a family, so you have to adapt a little bit so I'm adapting and I'm trying to be inclusive as much as I can. So, for example, it's not to toot a horn here, but it's not very common that the workforce will actually try to help develop a new direction. That's not common. In schools, we teach that now. But the people I've taught that, they're just now becoming managers. So what I've taught people in school, which is like hundreds and hundreds of students. Hundreds and hundreds of managers, when they become directors, you might start to see what they're saying. places. So we're talking like five to ten years before you see this again, you know, you might get lucky. You might get promoted and then, you do it. That would be really cool. You go somewhere else or whatever, that kind of thing. So my job is to equip you guys to succeed where you stay here or go somewhere else. The only thing that I ask for you guys is just, you know, make sure that you understand your lanes, but at the same time, be flexible and take your leave for your managers and directors. But also, think about, since you have the ven here. Think about what else we can do for the clients and talk about it amongst your teams and your directors and just keep it going. So I think the job placement thing is probably one of our more solid fee for service things that we've been talking about because we have a need, and there are employers that's like us. So that's something we should probably take another close look at if there's any other things we're doing. I know that International programs has things, but that's a little smaller operations, so that's a little easier, less moving parts. What do I mean by that, less people, less moving parts. And not to you guys are cogs and a wheel or anything like that, but the more people have, the more complex it is. But we're coming to that point and I want you guys to relax as much as possible, uhm concentrate on what you can do, rate in front of you at this time. Make sure you take your brakes, work on your vacation times, plan those out, don't lose any hours at the end of the year. Take your vacation earlier than later, because probably later, we'll probably have more work we have to do. So. But coordinate with your managers and supervisors on that. So [acronym] be brave about it. be bold. But think about others first. And that way, you know, am I doing this right? I'm not gonna hurt anybody? Well, if you already think about it, the people you're covering, you'll be fine. I find one of the best things to do is at the water cooler, at lunch, you, ‘Hey, I'm thinking about going on vacation, but I don't know when. When are you going to go on vacation?’ You start finding out when people are going, and you go, you know what? I think there is a gap here where I could go. Instead of being front about and coordinating and leading totally on your director and manager together, you're saying, ‘Well, I've talked to the team and we think we maybe at a team meeting. I think we figured it out!’ Well I would make your managers and directors happy as self adjust. So there's a lot of responsibility that we need to do to manage ourselves. Let's make sure that we do that, and I think we'll be in really good shape. If anything we want to add to that, because Latinx lady and I, we talk a lot about the workforce. I know your options to restructure and the health of the organization and idea of anything?“ - The CEO
(POST SPLIT INTO MULTIPLE PARTS DUE TO WORD COUNT)
“Yeah” - Elon
“You know, that kind of thing. They really mean sometimes. Money makes people say things in a cash form, so, but we do what we can, when we can, or we prepare to do what we can, when we can. No, that's an important state to say, because we've started to look at this, back in February of really kind of diving in to make ourselves pay for service. Think about how we're going to do that. We're preparing for it. We've looked at quality, you know, the [acronym] team just came through with flying colors. corrective actions per se. So we had a nice discussion with them afterwards. I think I've talked about them last week, where we offered to actually help other places to do financial management. so they like that. So let's take a little bit more about how we see it applies here. For example, I'm going to get a little bit more detail on some of one of the things that is a challenge for an agency. For example, we're working on referrals and how we do referrals. We need to know what each of us are doing, so we know where to refer. The Monday meetings that we're doing right now. Exactly, that's what we start hearing one of the people do. You find out what their scope of services is without looking at the [acronym]. But you can look at the [acronym] or out there for you to see, right? So we take a look at those, then listen to what people are doing, and that's important. We need to know what others are doing so we understand each of our parts. So we do not do others' work. So when we refer to them, they shouldn't do our work. I mean, when we're referring to them, we shouldn't do their work, in other words, it’s really easy for us to start doing somebody else's work, because we're taking care of the clients. So that's called division of labor. It's not a personal thing, and that's where the friction comes from. You can see how that works now. You start doing something, you should do and you go, ‘Hey, what are you doing that for? Or you come up to the line and then you stop, and then the person you refer to goes, well, why aren't you doing this?‘ And that's not just internal. That's external as well, because we work with medical places. They want us to do things for them. So we have to draw the line. So that's where the friction occurs. So we just have to make sure that we know what others are doing so we can understand each of our parts. but rather give them work so they can fulfill their scope of services. So for example, when I say we need to rally around a particular program, we do everything that we can. without doing their work, to boost their numbers, because one of the things, the primary thing for our contracts is enrollment, right? If we enroll, we get the number, we get paid. If we actually do services for the big deal, we have to do services with them, we have to show that we're doing that. And then if we have quality in those services, then they'll keep on giving us money. So that's the reason why all that works that way. So. But we need to be flexible, so if others need help, our supervisors and managers can actually temporarily say, hey, Helline, why don't you go ahead and do some more. work with Eanie? Cause you understand all that. That might happen. You know, how might need to rally that far. But your supervisor will let you know. So let's coordinate our work and allow assistance to happen to others, when we're directed to do that. But remember, the primary thing is you have your own scope and services, make sure you understand those things. And one of what we could do to actually help with this division of labor is when you get to that point where we're a division where you see you come up to a line and say, you could actually tell somebody, ‘Here's some really cool contacts for you to enroll your services. By the way, I've done everything up to what I can right now.’ If you need more help, you can talk to my supervisor, but come up to this point. I've done everything I do up to this point. If we have the same kind of language as syntax, we'll all start to hear and see those the visions. And if there's something really simple, bio means take care of the client, but keep your your supervisor informed. That's that flexibility thing as long as it happens all the time, and it becomes more of the pattern, that's not a big deal. But really rely on your managers and your directors for those lanes, but then the directors are gonna ones that are gonna be the ones that blur the lanes a little bit when we need to really bolster. Like, for example, if [acronym] gets turned on big time, we might be restructured in a way where we don't have that many [acronym], and those who used to do an [acronym], we might be tapping on the show, hey, we're gonna have to reactivate for this for a period of time. Fortunately, we have a lot of good categories in our time periods that we can actually pick from. So just get the permission or the direction and do that, and then move forward. So this is going to become more important when we get into October, November. Especially like if we activate fee for services and we're starting to do something new that we haven't done before., what I call above the line below the line, above the line is we get paid by our current below line, we get paid by a fee for service receiver, or a client, or another business that we work for that impacts our clients. So, make sure that we document everything we do. Even if you're doing a fee for services, just because you don't have a grant. Make sure you document things. Have the case notes in case somebody gets sick, they can pick up the ball. Just by looking at the case. So we're going to have our primary assignments for our jobs and we'll probably restructure when it comes to funding as we get some definitive direction when I decide things. Now, let me talk about that a little bit. I've done a lot of restructuring in my past a lot. and then I've had really big organizations work for me. When you have a lot of layers, it forwards you to do things in isolation. Like for example, a really hard calls, usually I'll be doing that in my office, really looking at it really closely. But we're a small organization, and we operate more like a family, so you have to adapt a little bit so I'm adapting and I'm trying to be inclusive as much as I can. So, for example, it's not to toot a horn here, but it's not very common that the workforce will actually try to help develop a new direction. That's not common. In schools, we teach that now. But the people I've taught that, they're just now becoming managers. So what I've taught people in school, which is like hundreds and hundreds of students. Hundreds and hundreds of managers, when they become directors, you might start to see what they're saying. places. So we're talking like five to ten years before you see this again, you know, you might get lucky. You might get promoted and then, you do it. That would be really cool. You go somewhere else or whatever, that kind of thing. So my job is to equip you guys to succeed where you stay here or go somewhere else. The only thing that I ask for you guys is just, you know, make sure that you understand your lanes, but at the same time, be flexible and take your leave for your managers and directors. But also, think about, since you have the ven here. Think about what else we can do for the clients and talk about it amongst your teams and your directors and just keep it going. So I think the job placement thing is probably one of our more solid fee for service things that we've been talking about because we have a need, and there are employers that's like us. So that's something we should probably take another close look at if there's any other things we're doing. I know that International programs has things, but that's a little smaller operations, so that's a little easier, less moving parts. What do I mean by that, less people, less moving parts. And not to you guys are cogs and a wheel or anything like that, but the more people have, the more complex it is. But we're coming to that point and I want you guys to relax as much as possible, uhm concentrate on what you can do, rate in front of you at this time. Make sure you take your brakes, work on your vacation times, plan those out, don't lose any hours at the end of the year. Take your vacation earlier than later, because probably later, we'll probably have more work we have to do. So. But coordinate with your managers and supervisors on that. So [acronym] be brave about it. be bold. But think about others first. And that way, you know, am I doing this right? I'm not gonna hurt anybody? Well, if you already think about it, the people you're covering, you'll be fine. I find one of the best things to do is at the water cooler, at lunch, you, ‘Hey, I'm thinking about going on vacation, but I don't know when. When are you going to go on vacation?’ You start finding out when people are going, and you go, you know what? I think there is a gap here where I could go. Instead of being front about and coordinating and leading totally on your director and manager together, you're saying, ‘Well, I've talked to the team and we think we maybe at a team meeting. I think we figured it out!’ Well I would make your managers and directors happy as self adjust. So there's a lot of responsibility that we need to do to manage ourselves. Let's make sure that we do that, and I think we'll be in really good shape. If anything we want to add to that, because Latinx lady and I, we talk a lot about the workforce. I know your options to restructure and the health of the organization and idea of anything?“ - The CEO
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4 weeks ago#51991
July 7th, 2025 (Continued):
“No, just ahead, you, as soon as we December be here and I' sending reminders that only 40 hours are gonna be carry over to the next year January 1st, or the people that are just joined us year or you know, in the last years, they accrue vacation, so if somebody decides to live and they already took all the vacation, we moved to an adjustment. Also at the end, so it just accrued time that gets paid, but I think most people here have accrued time already, so I just use plan for it and then no way until December when everybody wants to take off and nobody will be in the office because that's going a hard decision just to leave everybody. So uhh basically allow everybody to go take vacation, so you plan ahead.“ - Latinx Lady
“So directors are going to be looking at, is there always a skeleton curve for the department here? And then that would be like the oversight, but then within a team's kind of figure out when you're going to go or not because there's things we want to do. Like for me, for example, I would love to actually take some time off for EAA, because I'm a farmer pilot, I've got grounded by this little procedure hand. But I still love going and seeing about that and looking at flights and gear and all that stuff. So that's and towards the end of July, just before we go to DC. Also, as some of you guys know, I love cars. So Rhode America's August 3rd is Sunday, so second and 1st, it's the 3rd is the big race. Road America, have you guys been to Road America? It's a nice place. So one of my friends, he's kind of well to do. He rented a golf cart for the entire weekend and got 12 tickets. He's just handing him out. So I got one of them. And so he's also asking for options, he's leaving a couple of seats for newcomers, so there's between all of us at the shop at Evat and Wyann, that's where Wilson were coming from. We're debating, we'll get on the phone and FaceTime on the weekend with the beer in the backyard and debate, who's going to go and when? So I love cars. It's a lot of fun. So, I mean those are things I would like to actually protect. And of course, I am a big fan of vacation, so in August, I usually take care of my mother. So I have that late hour already to talk to the board about the big one, but these little ones, you know, I got to work with Latinx lady and say, Latinx lady, are you going to need me? So she'll say yes or no to me. because, you know, I have to take care of this place, so she knows there's something I have to do it. And if things come up, like today, I have a problem at the house, my house. I want a circuit blew in my summer room. And so I went downstairs to reset the breaker, and as I touched it and moved it over a big giant spark about that big flew off and hit me, and it shut off like right away, and I'm like, huh. Well, the thing did his job and kept me from getting electrocuted, but I shouldn't be doing that. So I have to go back to my house midday here, and take care of that so that we don't have a fire and so he doesn't killed, touching that electrical box. If you ever have a 200 amp service, I always make sure there's no water underneath it. You know, all that safety stuff. So if you guys are about to buy a home and you want to talk about home safety, set up a lunch, and I'll talk about all the bad things that can happen. And then we'll go from there, I think Lauren, you had a home for a lot. You've seen a lot of stuff happen, so I'll be glad to talk to you about that. So today, for example, if you have any expense checks or checks that need to be done today, make sure they get those Latinx lady right away because on Friday or what's it Thursday? Thursday, she heard me making a call to the electrician. So we're going to make sure if there's urgent checks that'll get them done before I go. So I'll be working at home this afternoon. I got plenty of emails and stuff I got to generate, so I'll be able to generate artifacts for sure. But I'll probably get there at 12:30pm or so.. I might have the electrician show up at the top of the zone. Yeah, so I got to leave here at 11:30am. They said between 12pm and 4pm, so my delay doesn't show up early, if I get there, you know, 11:45, they won't come until 4pm, so. But at least I'll be there. So, any questions? Any concerns you want to voice?”
“You don't want to snip the wire before you put it back into the circuit?” - Elon
“I could do that. But then there were in reality my insurance. You have to have electricity, you think, so, people don't realize that if they do their own electricity, their own car accident and then a fire, because after it's because of that. And then they look for the permit, pull for that, the insurance won't cover. Your house burnt down, that's it…”
“I know some whose garage burnt down. I used to work with them, and on 4th of July someone threw a firework into the garbage. His BMW is in the garage, his truck full of tools right next to his garage. Everything's crisp! he has nothing now.” - Elon
“Yeah, so, if you have any concerns about the workplace, make sure you talk to your immediate supervisor. And then if you don't get the answers you need, you still are feeling anxious, you know, you can bump it up the chain a little bit, you know, try to resolve it, as much as you can between your supervisor and your team. So that's one of the reasons why you guys are free to talk to each other. You know, go to the water cooler and talk about your concerns and whatnot. But the thing you have to remember when you do that is don't make a judgment. I like, oh, I know what's happening. When you hear yourself in your mind say that, and you don't have all the facts, oh, that's dangerous. That's where rumors start. So trying not to not to start in rumors, but try to collect questions. That's the best way to handle it, because questions will lead you to like what you don't know when others don't know and, maybe a director talked to somebody else and they gave him the answer. Oh, sure, you can repeat what your director said. That's not a problem. But, don't speak for your director, or your manager. certainly don't speak for me. There's too many unknowns that I face every day, so But I think we' I think we're doing pretty good. We have overall generally speaking, overall generally, we have a way out. I just got to figure out what that path is, and we'll discover the path together. So pretty cool. And we got new people here at that's a good sign. We have eminent. So that's cool. Every, if you don't mind pay sharing about[law firm]? I haven't already. Okay, so we work with [law firm] and they're a big law firm, they're all over the country. We're getting real close to having a meeting with them, [acronym] and myself, to discuss how we can refer to each other. And what I've already explained over the phone conceptually to them is that if they have clients who can't afford them, who have [focus] needs, they refer to us. and how that works is let's do an analogy. Let's say we're a DOD contractor, North of Cremen They do really big projects, you know, the B2 bomber and all that stuff, right? But they can't afford to do a subcontract for an exhiliary party headed for another Internet. They lose money. Let me do that. So subcontractor comes up and they go, I'll take that, and they can make money because their operations are smaller, you know, so much overhead and what. And so we're like a subcontractor to [law firm] what I explained to them. We could probably absorb that allure rate, and the reason why is that we have some grants that will continue. And we have communities interested in helping the underserved, especially when it comes to the second stuff. And there's going to be a huge need, obviously, for asylum work. So we're one of the only agencies out there that's positioned to really start to really work it. We've just begun, but we can work on it to keep on going. and if there's anything that we can't do, we can give in to [law firm], we can keep our nose clean because we have to make sure that we don't do certain legal things, so we don't jeopardize some of our contracts like, for example, I think it's global ties. They have a very specific requirement. When it comes to oustrating integration. So we respect that and we move forward. It actually helps us to define our work. Remember we talk about divisional labor? We could create a division of labor between us and [law firm]. And they could make stuff that we can't do or the things we can't do, period. And then we do the little things so that they will lose money. So keep up the good work, if you have any questions. My door is open too, you can just walk in, but start with your managers and your directors first. They probably have the answer. Especially in your area, because I'm not an attorney!”
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“No, just ahead, you, as soon as we December be here and I' sending reminders that only 40 hours are gonna be carry over to the next year January 1st, or the people that are just joined us year or you know, in the last years, they accrue vacation, so if somebody decides to live and they already took all the vacation, we moved to an adjustment. Also at the end, so it just accrued time that gets paid, but I think most people here have accrued time already, so I just use plan for it and then no way until December when everybody wants to take off and nobody will be in the office because that's going a hard decision just to leave everybody. So uhh basically allow everybody to go take vacation, so you plan ahead.“ - Latinx Lady
“So directors are going to be looking at, is there always a skeleton curve for the department here? And then that would be like the oversight, but then within a team's kind of figure out when you're going to go or not because there's things we want to do. Like for me, for example, I would love to actually take some time off for EAA, because I'm a farmer pilot, I've got grounded by this little procedure hand. But I still love going and seeing about that and looking at flights and gear and all that stuff. So that's and towards the end of July, just before we go to DC. Also, as some of you guys know, I love cars. So Rhode America's August 3rd is Sunday, so second and 1st, it's the 3rd is the big race. Road America, have you guys been to Road America? It's a nice place. So one of my friends, he's kind of well to do. He rented a golf cart for the entire weekend and got 12 tickets. He's just handing him out. So I got one of them. And so he's also asking for options, he's leaving a couple of seats for newcomers, so there's between all of us at the shop at Evat and Wyann, that's where Wilson were coming from. We're debating, we'll get on the phone and FaceTime on the weekend with the beer in the backyard and debate, who's going to go and when? So I love cars. It's a lot of fun. So, I mean those are things I would like to actually protect. And of course, I am a big fan of vacation, so in August, I usually take care of my mother. So I have that late hour already to talk to the board about the big one, but these little ones, you know, I got to work with Latinx lady and say, Latinx lady, are you going to need me? So she'll say yes or no to me. because, you know, I have to take care of this place, so she knows there's something I have to do it. And if things come up, like today, I have a problem at the house, my house. I want a circuit blew in my summer room. And so I went downstairs to reset the breaker, and as I touched it and moved it over a big giant spark about that big flew off and hit me, and it shut off like right away, and I'm like, huh. Well, the thing did his job and kept me from getting electrocuted, but I shouldn't be doing that. So I have to go back to my house midday here, and take care of that so that we don't have a fire and so he doesn't killed, touching that electrical box. If you ever have a 200 amp service, I always make sure there's no water underneath it. You know, all that safety stuff. So if you guys are about to buy a home and you want to talk about home safety, set up a lunch, and I'll talk about all the bad things that can happen. And then we'll go from there, I think Lauren, you had a home for a lot. You've seen a lot of stuff happen, so I'll be glad to talk to you about that. So today, for example, if you have any expense checks or checks that need to be done today, make sure they get those Latinx lady right away because on Friday or what's it Thursday? Thursday, she heard me making a call to the electrician. So we're going to make sure if there's urgent checks that'll get them done before I go. So I'll be working at home this afternoon. I got plenty of emails and stuff I got to generate, so I'll be able to generate artifacts for sure. But I'll probably get there at 12:30pm or so.. I might have the electrician show up at the top of the zone. Yeah, so I got to leave here at 11:30am. They said between 12pm and 4pm, so my delay doesn't show up early, if I get there, you know, 11:45, they won't come until 4pm, so. But at least I'll be there. So, any questions? Any concerns you want to voice?”
“You don't want to snip the wire before you put it back into the circuit?” - Elon
“I could do that. But then there were in reality my insurance. You have to have electricity, you think, so, people don't realize that if they do their own electricity, their own car accident and then a fire, because after it's because of that. And then they look for the permit, pull for that, the insurance won't cover. Your house burnt down, that's it…”
“I know some whose garage burnt down. I used to work with them, and on 4th of July someone threw a firework into the garbage. His BMW is in the garage, his truck full of tools right next to his garage. Everything's crisp! he has nothing now.” - Elon
“Yeah, so, if you have any concerns about the workplace, make sure you talk to your immediate supervisor. And then if you don't get the answers you need, you still are feeling anxious, you know, you can bump it up the chain a little bit, you know, try to resolve it, as much as you can between your supervisor and your team. So that's one of the reasons why you guys are free to talk to each other. You know, go to the water cooler and talk about your concerns and whatnot. But the thing you have to remember when you do that is don't make a judgment. I like, oh, I know what's happening. When you hear yourself in your mind say that, and you don't have all the facts, oh, that's dangerous. That's where rumors start. So trying not to not to start in rumors, but try to collect questions. That's the best way to handle it, because questions will lead you to like what you don't know when others don't know and, maybe a director talked to somebody else and they gave him the answer. Oh, sure, you can repeat what your director said. That's not a problem. But, don't speak for your director, or your manager. certainly don't speak for me. There's too many unknowns that I face every day, so But I think we' I think we're doing pretty good. We have overall generally speaking, overall generally, we have a way out. I just got to figure out what that path is, and we'll discover the path together. So pretty cool. And we got new people here at that's a good sign. We have eminent. So that's cool. Every, if you don't mind pay sharing about[law firm]? I haven't already. Okay, so we work with [law firm] and they're a big law firm, they're all over the country. We're getting real close to having a meeting with them, [acronym] and myself, to discuss how we can refer to each other. And what I've already explained over the phone conceptually to them is that if they have clients who can't afford them, who have [focus] needs, they refer to us. and how that works is let's do an analogy. Let's say we're a DOD contractor, North of Cremen They do really big projects, you know, the B2 bomber and all that stuff, right? But they can't afford to do a subcontract for an exhiliary party headed for another Internet. They lose money. Let me do that. So subcontractor comes up and they go, I'll take that, and they can make money because their operations are smaller, you know, so much overhead and what. And so we're like a subcontractor to [law firm] what I explained to them. We could probably absorb that allure rate, and the reason why is that we have some grants that will continue. And we have communities interested in helping the underserved, especially when it comes to the second stuff. And there's going to be a huge need, obviously, for asylum work. So we're one of the only agencies out there that's positioned to really start to really work it. We've just begun, but we can work on it to keep on going. and if there's anything that we can't do, we can give in to [law firm], we can keep our nose clean because we have to make sure that we don't do certain legal things, so we don't jeopardize some of our contracts like, for example, I think it's global ties. They have a very specific requirement. When it comes to oustrating integration. So we respect that and we move forward. It actually helps us to define our work. Remember we talk about divisional labor? We could create a division of labor between us and [law firm]. And they could make stuff that we can't do or the things we can't do, period. And then we do the little things so that they will lose money. So keep up the good work, if you have any questions. My door is open too, you can just walk in, but start with your managers and your directors first. They probably have the answer. Especially in your area, because I'm not an attorney!”
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4 weeks ago#51994
July 7th, 2025 (Continued): He finally got done and we proceeded as normal, Harmony C was finally back and I said I was going to do IT help because Staples didn’t have any pictures for me. I then went out to go to the bathroom and had to let a guy with an arm cast in. I found out that the people in the White House were saying that Jeffrey Epstein had no client list, so all that means is that Ghislane Maxwell trafficked children to nobody and is in jail for it. #Freeghislanemaxwell. I didn’t have anything to do for a while until lunch when I went to the pizza place to order a slice of cheese pizza and cheesesticks, I ate those and went back to see a bunch of people watching a presentation, including Ahwahn and Zach A. I got back and didn’t have much else to do for the day. I waved to Staples once and then I asked Seth M if I could go home early, he said yes because he had nothing for me to do. I brought back my stuff and then came in past the Ukrainian man’s desk to see Zach A helping Zarith C with an issue with her printer printing too dark. I gave her my ID to test and it seemed to be an issue with the light. I threw away the papers given to me and then walked over to the bus to take it home. I talked with the girl from yesterday a bit and she told me she would start dying her hair. I took my laundry to the laundromat and stayed there while it washed for 30 minutes. I went over to a convenience store to buy a Fanta strawberry soda. My clothes and then dryed for 20, while I was there, this guy named Wyatt came in to get his laundry, he complimented my rolling duffel bag to carry laundry compared to his trash bag, he tried to invite me to this non-denominational Bible study group but I refused, telling him about my own Wednesday group. I left and dumped my clean laundry on the carpet before buying some sunscreen spray. I walked to the beach on a long path and had to reroute a bit because my first path was closed and the alternate option which passed a lighthouse was too deviating. I encountered some people hiking down a muddy trail and then got there. I posted on one of those Christian Instagram accounts that made a matchmaking post and this Asian girl from Indiana was interentest in me because I mentioned acolyting for the Archbishop. I saw my dubstep coworker playing volleyball and said hi. I got changed and then swam for a bit while I watched this guy hit on 2 girls. He was kind of successful but one of them had a boyfriend and the other was leaving for Austin, Texas in 2 and a half weeks. I left and then talked to Vannie on snapchat, I told her she was sinning for premarital cuddling and she screenshotted it and sent it to Cara, they both found it hilarious. Cara finally snapped me back about her getting home to be my neighbor again. I had to tell her I moved farther away from her. I got home and then made some ramen for dinner, I debated adding an egg to it but I already had 2 eggs today so 3 eggs would be bad for my cholesterol. I watched more Youtube on the TV before taking a shower and going to sleep.
Song of the Day: Thick as a Brick (Part I) - Jethro Tull (1972)
Song of the Day: Thick as a Brick (Part I) - Jethro Tull (1972)
4 weeks ago#52724
July 8th, 2025: I woke up at 6:30am this morning, I stayed in bed for a bit before deciding to walk to the convenience store at 7:10am, I know it opens at 7:00am so I got there at 7:20am. The doors were locked but I could clearly see this old Black lady inside working and stacking newspapers. I knocked to get her attention but she ignored me. I was pissed so I just walked back home and I cooked myself the same breakfast as last time: 2 softboiled eggs and 2 slices of toast, one with blackberry preservatives, and another with vegemite. I ate them and got dressed in one of my blue and white button downs. I hopped on the bus to take it to my volunteering thing. I got over and walked in, I walked in behind Portia and she held the door open for me. I then held it open for her and walked in, we took the elevator together and she let me into Seth M’s office to grab all my stuff and bring it to my spot. I walked over and got it set up. I brewed the coffee after emptying it and Staples said:
“Wow you didn’t blow it up!”
I poured myself some coffee and brought over this bottle of sugar free cinnamon sugar flavor syrup from the 2nd breakroom and poured it into my coffee, it didn’t taste good. On James’ Snapchat story, he posted a story saying:
<I got 6 hours what should I do?
At this airport in Louisville, Kentucky, turns out James finally left Fort Knox and now he’s going to Daytona, Ohio with a stop at LaGuardia International airport in New York City. (Speaking of New York City, I always found it weird that Michigan City was in Indiana, why not rename it to Indiana City) We had this conversation:
>Wait in the airport
<Yeah pretty much
>What are you gonna eat there?
<I had some Starbucks, I'll probably eat lunch at new york
<The airport that is
>You’re going to New York?
<I got a 4 hour layover there and then to Ohio
<for my internship
>Ohhhh
>I was wondering why not go directly to Ohio.
<Because the army is terrible at making rational decisions
>😓
>Is it even cheaper than just flying directly to Ohio?
<I guess?
>Hopefully
<I ain't paying either way so
<It is what it is I suppose
>Well that’s great!
<Yessir
>Rip
He went dark for a while while going to LaGuardia and got mad that they directly flew over Daytona. I didn’t get any more cards from Staples to print out but after a while I noticed that the Daeguite was missing so I asked one of the guys she works under:
“Where did the Daeguite go?”
He replied:
“She shifted her schedule to Wednesdays and Thursdays now.”
Wow, I just ask out a girl once and weeks later she shifts her entire schedule. I had a stuffy nose for a while so I constantly inhaled and exhaled. I was doing this while walking past the Ukrainian man at his desk, (He was talking to somebody on WeChat) and I thought it made me look like I was just angry. I decided to go over to the pizza place for lunch at 12:03pm. While I was eating this philly cheese steak pizza slice, I saw the Latinx lady come in. I got done with my pizza and as I was walking out, the CEO walked in. I got back and noticed that it was Macie’s birthday today so I wished her a happy 21st birthday, she corrected me that it was actually her 22nd birthday. But oh well you still get to drink today. I had a meeting for setting up Microsoft Dynamics with the two guys, Zach A, Seth M, and the CEO. The main printer was having issues then so it would print multiple copies of something, including this Laotian guy’s drivers license. I tried to set up in the library but someone was in it when I wanted to be in the library. I went to the other bland room and joined the call there. Not as much was discussed within the meeting but I made sure to keep notes. Because the WiFi was so bad where I was, it kept glitching out to the point that my camera had turned off and it wouldn’t turn back on no matter what I did. I checked and my camera was working for me but clicking on ‘turn on camera’ did nothing. I just browsed my phone and talked with the girl. She had dyed her hair blue and it got on her scalp and in her sink. The last meeting for Microsoft Dynamics is next week but I got disconnected. I tried emailing Seth M to let me back in but I didn’t get a response, I checked my phone and found out that it is the 2nd anniversary of Diane’s friend’s wedding who tried to hit on me while I was a minor and she was engaged. Also the ‘mixed-race’ girl that I was talking to on the day that we all went swimming at the rich person’s pool had her 21st birthday today so I sent her a happy birthday. I continued my conversation with James the Greater when landed in LaGuardia:
>You’re in LaGuardia now!
<I am indeed
He then posted about his new place he will be staying, which was a fancy hotel room.
<A REAL BED
<BATHTUB
<MICROWAVE AND COFFEE MACHINE
<DRESSER AND TV
<This is so hype
I replied to him:
>Why are you staying there
<Air Force internship
>You’re staying at a hotel
<Air Force hotel yeah
I didn’t have much to do so I left a bit early and took the crowded bus home. There was one troon on the bus, also I saw this extremely short girl that I recognized from college, apparently she’s in some sort of feminist club. I got home and worked on catching up more with my Biblejaks. I realized my nose was filled with blackheads so I walked over to the convenience store to pick up some patches for removing blackheads. I remember applying one when I was like 13 on my nose and I let it sit for a while until I peeled it off and it worked. My nose skin felt opened. I got home and cooked some bowtie pasta with meat sauce for dinner and then ate half of it. I checked my text to hear my mom say that she wanted me to go on a trip on August 23rd and 24th for a family camping trip, I wrote:
>Ok!
I tried looking for it everywhere, even while this Muslim woman came into the skincare aisle. I talked to 2 different employees before finding something for $20, I bought it and went home. I took a shower and applied, the girl from Green bay told me that those were a scam and that I should just do some exfoliating stuff instead. The nose strip said that it was supposed to be left on for 6-8 hours. I then went to sleep.
Song of the Day: I Saw the Light - Todd Rundgren (1972)
“Wow you didn’t blow it up!”
I poured myself some coffee and brought over this bottle of sugar free cinnamon sugar flavor syrup from the 2nd breakroom and poured it into my coffee, it didn’t taste good. On James’ Snapchat story, he posted a story saying:
<I got 6 hours what should I do?
At this airport in Louisville, Kentucky, turns out James finally left Fort Knox and now he’s going to Daytona, Ohio with a stop at LaGuardia International airport in New York City. (Speaking of New York City, I always found it weird that Michigan City was in Indiana, why not rename it to Indiana City) We had this conversation:
>Wait in the airport
<Yeah pretty much
>What are you gonna eat there?
<I had some Starbucks, I'll probably eat lunch at new york
<The airport that is
>You’re going to New York?
<I got a 4 hour layover there and then to Ohio
<for my internship
>Ohhhh
>I was wondering why not go directly to Ohio.
<Because the army is terrible at making rational decisions
>😓
>Is it even cheaper than just flying directly to Ohio?
<I guess?
>Hopefully
<I ain't paying either way so
<It is what it is I suppose
>Well that’s great!
<Yessir
>Rip
He went dark for a while while going to LaGuardia and got mad that they directly flew over Daytona. I didn’t get any more cards from Staples to print out but after a while I noticed that the Daeguite was missing so I asked one of the guys she works under:
“Where did the Daeguite go?”
He replied:
“She shifted her schedule to Wednesdays and Thursdays now.”
Wow, I just ask out a girl once and weeks later she shifts her entire schedule. I had a stuffy nose for a while so I constantly inhaled and exhaled. I was doing this while walking past the Ukrainian man at his desk, (He was talking to somebody on WeChat) and I thought it made me look like I was just angry. I decided to go over to the pizza place for lunch at 12:03pm. While I was eating this philly cheese steak pizza slice, I saw the Latinx lady come in. I got done with my pizza and as I was walking out, the CEO walked in. I got back and noticed that it was Macie’s birthday today so I wished her a happy 21st birthday, she corrected me that it was actually her 22nd birthday. But oh well you still get to drink today. I had a meeting for setting up Microsoft Dynamics with the two guys, Zach A, Seth M, and the CEO. The main printer was having issues then so it would print multiple copies of something, including this Laotian guy’s drivers license. I tried to set up in the library but someone was in it when I wanted to be in the library. I went to the other bland room and joined the call there. Not as much was discussed within the meeting but I made sure to keep notes. Because the WiFi was so bad where I was, it kept glitching out to the point that my camera had turned off and it wouldn’t turn back on no matter what I did. I checked and my camera was working for me but clicking on ‘turn on camera’ did nothing. I just browsed my phone and talked with the girl. She had dyed her hair blue and it got on her scalp and in her sink. The last meeting for Microsoft Dynamics is next week but I got disconnected. I tried emailing Seth M to let me back in but I didn’t get a response, I checked my phone and found out that it is the 2nd anniversary of Diane’s friend’s wedding who tried to hit on me while I was a minor and she was engaged. Also the ‘mixed-race’ girl that I was talking to on the day that we all went swimming at the rich person’s pool had her 21st birthday today so I sent her a happy birthday. I continued my conversation with James the Greater when landed in LaGuardia:
>You’re in LaGuardia now!
<I am indeed
He then posted about his new place he will be staying, which was a fancy hotel room.
<A REAL BED
<BATHTUB
<MICROWAVE AND COFFEE MACHINE
<DRESSER AND TV
<This is so hype
I replied to him:
>Why are you staying there
<Air Force internship
>You’re staying at a hotel
<Air Force hotel yeah
I didn’t have much to do so I left a bit early and took the crowded bus home. There was one troon on the bus, also I saw this extremely short girl that I recognized from college, apparently she’s in some sort of feminist club. I got home and worked on catching up more with my Biblejaks. I realized my nose was filled with blackheads so I walked over to the convenience store to pick up some patches for removing blackheads. I remember applying one when I was like 13 on my nose and I let it sit for a while until I peeled it off and it worked. My nose skin felt opened. I got home and cooked some bowtie pasta with meat sauce for dinner and then ate half of it. I checked my text to hear my mom say that she wanted me to go on a trip on August 23rd and 24th for a family camping trip, I wrote:
>Ok!
I tried looking for it everywhere, even while this Muslim woman came into the skincare aisle. I talked to 2 different employees before finding something for $20, I bought it and went home. I took a shower and applied, the girl from Green bay told me that those were a scam and that I should just do some exfoliating stuff instead. The nose strip said that it was supposed to be left on for 6-8 hours. I then went to sleep.
Song of the Day: I Saw the Light - Todd Rundgren (1972)
4 weeks ago#52736
July 9th, 2025: My only free day in weeks. I woke up at 6:30am but I had nothing to do today so I just slept in bed until 8:20am, I got up and peeled off my nose thing to find out that nothing much came off of it, guess the girl from Green Bay was right. I checked my messages to find out that Cliffe had sent me a text message at 7:31am asking:
<Evangelization at 11?
I replied at 9:16am:
>No, sorry.
I got dressed and walked over to the convenience store to buy some cereal. I got a 3 for 1 deal on Corn Puffs and saw the same lady from before there and also Spencer. I walked back to my apartment and had breakfast. I also brewed myself some coffee and had that in my giant mug. What I did for most of the day was play video games because I had been starving myself of free days. I started off on Unturned and tried server hopping for a while until I just decided to leave and swapped over to playing Terraria on a server, I mostly did a hunger games minigame (run around, collect weapons and gear while fighting others) and then I played some Mindustry, It’s basically like Factorio mixed in with tower defense. I spent most of it playing on a great map called Boxfort. For lunch, I had cooked some ramen with peas, cut carrot, roasted vegetable bouillon, and a singular egg because ramen is a garbage can meal, now you might be asking:
“What’s a garbage can meal?”
Or:
“Who the fuck eats garbage!”
It's what I call a meal where you throw in a bunch of assorted food that’s expired or is about to expire in order to get rid of it. Ramen is a good base for it because it can go with lots of stuff. I eventually wanted to go and clean my bathtub today because it had been pretty dirty for so long. I was low on baking soda so I took the bus to the grocery store, I bought a giant box of baking soda for $4 and also decided to grab some of this grapefruit flavored soda. I payed for it at the self checkout and then walked back to the bus stop and waited there. I took the bus back and unpacked the two items I bought, I looked on YouTube and watched this video called:
“How to Clean a Bathtub (Cleaning Motivation)” by this channel called Clean My Space, I followed along with her instructions, including mixing dish soap and baking soda to put on the brush and scrub, but I sprayed vinegar on it and let it sit. I gamed more until I came back and scrubbed some of the soapscum off; however, the soapscum was still present in the bathtub. I uploaded 2 more Biblejaks until it was time for me to get ready for Eucharistic adoration. I checked the Whatsapp family groupchat to see my mom posted these 6 pictures of me when I went to Culver Military summer camp with the message:
<Great reminder to when Gemerson was still shorter than me!
I wore my Ralph Lauren white long sleeved button down and a black suit jacket with a blue interior, I wore my pentecost necklace, I got on the bus at 5:26am and got off, I walked over and walked in to the dinner place quite early. Father Malachi greeted me and we talked for a bit until some other seminarians came in. I had some water to drink while talking to some of the seminarians. Sideburns was there talking about his apprenticeship as a carpenter where he was working with setting up scaffolding. A while later, Cliffe, Stuart, and Jeremiah came in all sweaty. I asked them what they were doing and they said they biked here from downtown. The Keralan came in later also. A bit later we went up to the chapel to do liturgy of the hours for the evening prayer. We finally had dinner, which consisted of bratwurst with roasted red peppers, arugula in lemon juice with parmesan, rigatoni with cheese and tomato sauce, french bread with butter, and some frosted brownies with sprinkles, I sat next to this Capuchin monk who I recognized from the Catholic center that one time, I asked him if he did that and he said yes. I taked a bit more. Once I got done eating, I overheard a seminarian say this:
“In Wisconsin, people will always deliver bad news as a sandwich, so it’s good news, bad news, good news. Like for example:”
He then began to speak in a perfect Wisconsinite impression
“Oh yeah Linda from Kewaskum makes a mean fish bake, well her son is addicted to cocaine and is getting a divorce! She’s such a sweet lady!”
We then went into the main chapel to do the Eucharistic adoration. I got into place and prayed the rosary while sitting next to The Keralan. I kept getting distracted by the contemporary worship music that was at the event and it was so loud and distracting. The goytunes distracted me so much that I probably prayed a whole rosary and a half. I saw Naomi sitting alone in the back but I didn’t want to go near her so I walked outside to get to the front and then went down to the bathrooms. I saw Quinci sitting next to Elizabeth, Sideburns’ cousin, and Sideburns’ other cousin. Once the adoration was done, mass started with 6 priests and 4 acolytes. The homily was given by this Joseph of Port Washington, e talked about how he goes to this place in Paris he jokingly calls:
“The Polytechnical school of Martyrs”
Due to it having over 200 martyrs come out of it, and then talking about Saint Augustine Zhao Rong, how he was a prison guard originally for Saint Louis Gabriel Taurin Dufresse before being converted by him in 1785 and then later martyred in 1815. He talked about the Chinese government arresting a group of Chinese priests and laypeople for organizing a pilgrimage to Rome. The homily was done and we went to the social afterwards. The peach fuzz woman wasn’t there but I saw the guy that I talked with on Sunday whom I will be calling Haile. Quinci told me Quinn was still in Rome while I saw Elizabeth sitting on the ground so I joked:
“How’s the weather down there?”
She countered:
“Same as the weather up there!”
I got over to Stuart and he accused me of aura farming because I was all dressed up. I then had to leave after a bit to take the bus home, I did my Duolingo on the way and then got back, i took a shower, published my blog, and then went to sleep.
Song of the Day: 99 Red Balloons - Goldfinger (2000)
<Evangelization at 11?
I replied at 9:16am:
>No, sorry.
I got dressed and walked over to the convenience store to buy some cereal. I got a 3 for 1 deal on Corn Puffs and saw the same lady from before there and also Spencer. I walked back to my apartment and had breakfast. I also brewed myself some coffee and had that in my giant mug. What I did for most of the day was play video games because I had been starving myself of free days. I started off on Unturned and tried server hopping for a while until I just decided to leave and swapped over to playing Terraria on a server, I mostly did a hunger games minigame (run around, collect weapons and gear while fighting others) and then I played some Mindustry, It’s basically like Factorio mixed in with tower defense. I spent most of it playing on a great map called Boxfort. For lunch, I had cooked some ramen with peas, cut carrot, roasted vegetable bouillon, and a singular egg because ramen is a garbage can meal, now you might be asking:
“What’s a garbage can meal?”
Or:
“Who the fuck eats garbage!”
It's what I call a meal where you throw in a bunch of assorted food that’s expired or is about to expire in order to get rid of it. Ramen is a good base for it because it can go with lots of stuff. I eventually wanted to go and clean my bathtub today because it had been pretty dirty for so long. I was low on baking soda so I took the bus to the grocery store, I bought a giant box of baking soda for $4 and also decided to grab some of this grapefruit flavored soda. I payed for it at the self checkout and then walked back to the bus stop and waited there. I took the bus back and unpacked the two items I bought, I looked on YouTube and watched this video called:
“How to Clean a Bathtub (Cleaning Motivation)” by this channel called Clean My Space, I followed along with her instructions, including mixing dish soap and baking soda to put on the brush and scrub, but I sprayed vinegar on it and let it sit. I gamed more until I came back and scrubbed some of the soapscum off; however, the soapscum was still present in the bathtub. I uploaded 2 more Biblejaks until it was time for me to get ready for Eucharistic adoration. I checked the Whatsapp family groupchat to see my mom posted these 6 pictures of me when I went to Culver Military summer camp with the message:
<Great reminder to when Gemerson was still shorter than me!
I wore my Ralph Lauren white long sleeved button down and a black suit jacket with a blue interior, I wore my pentecost necklace, I got on the bus at 5:26am and got off, I walked over and walked in to the dinner place quite early. Father Malachi greeted me and we talked for a bit until some other seminarians came in. I had some water to drink while talking to some of the seminarians. Sideburns was there talking about his apprenticeship as a carpenter where he was working with setting up scaffolding. A while later, Cliffe, Stuart, and Jeremiah came in all sweaty. I asked them what they were doing and they said they biked here from downtown. The Keralan came in later also. A bit later we went up to the chapel to do liturgy of the hours for the evening prayer. We finally had dinner, which consisted of bratwurst with roasted red peppers, arugula in lemon juice with parmesan, rigatoni with cheese and tomato sauce, french bread with butter, and some frosted brownies with sprinkles, I sat next to this Capuchin monk who I recognized from the Catholic center that one time, I asked him if he did that and he said yes. I taked a bit more. Once I got done eating, I overheard a seminarian say this:
“In Wisconsin, people will always deliver bad news as a sandwich, so it’s good news, bad news, good news. Like for example:”
He then began to speak in a perfect Wisconsinite impression
“Oh yeah Linda from Kewaskum makes a mean fish bake, well her son is addicted to cocaine and is getting a divorce! She’s such a sweet lady!”
We then went into the main chapel to do the Eucharistic adoration. I got into place and prayed the rosary while sitting next to The Keralan. I kept getting distracted by the contemporary worship music that was at the event and it was so loud and distracting. The goytunes distracted me so much that I probably prayed a whole rosary and a half. I saw Naomi sitting alone in the back but I didn’t want to go near her so I walked outside to get to the front and then went down to the bathrooms. I saw Quinci sitting next to Elizabeth, Sideburns’ cousin, and Sideburns’ other cousin. Once the adoration was done, mass started with 6 priests and 4 acolytes. The homily was given by this Joseph of Port Washington, e talked about how he goes to this place in Paris he jokingly calls:
“The Polytechnical school of Martyrs”
Due to it having over 200 martyrs come out of it, and then talking about Saint Augustine Zhao Rong, how he was a prison guard originally for Saint Louis Gabriel Taurin Dufresse before being converted by him in 1785 and then later martyred in 1815. He talked about the Chinese government arresting a group of Chinese priests and laypeople for organizing a pilgrimage to Rome. The homily was done and we went to the social afterwards. The peach fuzz woman wasn’t there but I saw the guy that I talked with on Sunday whom I will be calling Haile. Quinci told me Quinn was still in Rome while I saw Elizabeth sitting on the ground so I joked:
“How’s the weather down there?”
She countered:
“Same as the weather up there!”
I got over to Stuart and he accused me of aura farming because I was all dressed up. I then had to leave after a bit to take the bus home, I did my Duolingo on the way and then got back, i took a shower, published my blog, and then went to sleep.
Song of the Day: 99 Red Balloons - Goldfinger (2000)
4 weeks ago#52738
July 10th, 2025: Back to work today, I woke myself up at 6:30am and ended up just going back to sleep for an hour. I got up and posted one Biblejak so I wasn’t behind anymore. I wrote more in my blog until it was time for me to take the bus to work. I got in at the time that the dubstep guy, Max, Jesse, and John were working on unloading this delivery, it was 10:01am so I couldn’t clock in for a while. Bill greeted me with:
“What’s happening Gemerson?”
I waited in the break room to clock in, the Italian lady came in, she looked noticeably fatter than before but then I noticed her place her hand on her belly, which was such a telltale sign that someone is pregnant, do pregnant women do it unconsciously? I then asked her:
“Are you pregnant?”
She replied to me:
“Yes I am 6 months along!”
She told me that she had already picked out a name for her girl. I forgot what she said. I eventually clocked in and said hi to Jill because she was working today. Before my first task, Will had me clean two rubber mats outside, at first I experimented with sweeping them but it was futile. I changed to the gas power washer and had a far easier time cleaning it off. I could see all the brown water coming off of it. I went inside and saw that I had these 2 messages from my therapist:
<Come on back when you get here.
<I had you down for today at 915. Was this wrong? Thx.
I texted her:
>Yeah, but we can do Friday.
My first task was filling the beverage cooler even though I think John already filled it. I did that and then worked on my next tasks on my list, which included wiping a ton of windows. There were 3 window wiping tasks that were written all on one line today, a new development. I said hi to Paula a few times whenever I saw her. I got a peek at the employee list for today and saw that Sabrina was supposed to be on today and also Tiffany. I saw that Jill’s friend had started working here so I got introduced to her. We got in a shipment and started checking it to make sure everything was there, I wasn’t noticing things as much so Jesse told me I was just standing around. It was 12:30pm so I had to go order a prosciutto sandwich, I ordered it from Jill and she said to me:
“Gemerson, my hands feel super cold, see!”
And she reached and grabbed my forearm, I did the same. I got a blood orange soda and went up to the cash register to point at fAsherah and then went up to eat my lunch. I got down after that was done and continued on my work tasks. I had pointing contests with fAsherah a bit more and accidentally bumped into Matt and Folsade once. I had to sweep outside for one of my tasks just before 3:00pm and then I went on my break. I purchased some sugar taralli due to it being on a discount. I ate some of it for my break and offered some to fAsherah, she accepted them. I noticed at this point that Sabrina had called in sick while Tiffany wasn’t here at this point. I asked Anne’s replacement why she wasn’t here and she said:
“Tiffany called me and said she got stuck on the freeway.”
I just couldn’t stop laughing. We talked about this and then Tiffany came in at 3:45pm, I couldn’t stop laughing. I went upstairs for one of my tasks to clean but I overheard Anne’s replacement and Ignacio talking about giving Tiffany a warning about her being late. I completed all of my tasks and then talked to fAsherah about some job drama more, she told me this Black lady cashier started being late and fAsherah thought it was something about her being in the hospital or something. I gave fAsherah the drama on Tiffany getting a warning. I went into the office and found that another employee that I liked, whom I will be calling Matheus, he got a 2nd warning because of some issues with a customer. I wrote in my blog a bit more and did a walk around the store once because I was bored. Tiffany was upstairs on one of her numerous breaks so I offered her a piece of the sugar taralli. She took a singular bite and then rudely threw it into the garbage, I asked her:
“Did you not like it?”
She exclaimed:
“It tastes like a frosted saltine cracker!”
Wow, rude. I went on break and got off at 5:00am to start on my tasks, I could here one of the employees talking to Bill and his son (who also works here) asking if the son was mad at him or that he pissed him off, Bill and his son explained that they weren’t mad at him. I scrubbed the floor in the back while the normal brush broom kept slipping off the handle so I had to get a good new one. I completed scrubbing and drying at 5:32pm and then cleaned the bathrooms, next I emptied the trashes, brought in the umbrellas, and then finally faced the store. I clocked out and took the bus home. The blue haired girl I talked to said that her birthday is tomorrow and that she wants to move back home to Illinois. I got off and cooked myself some ramen for dinner before watching this Trent Horn video on some Protestant replying to his video on Sola Scriptura. I think Alligator Alcatraz isn’t really real (no actual alligators) but it demonstrates that some Trump supporters are psychopaths. If our government fed La Luz del Mundo members to alligators I would be ecstatic. I took a shower and then got into bed. While I was trying to go to sleep at 10:17pm, these Black people were playing music super loudly to the point it was distracting my blog writing.
Song of the Day: Apache - The Sugarhill Gang (1981)
“What’s happening Gemerson?”
I waited in the break room to clock in, the Italian lady came in, she looked noticeably fatter than before but then I noticed her place her hand on her belly, which was such a telltale sign that someone is pregnant, do pregnant women do it unconsciously? I then asked her:
“Are you pregnant?”
She replied to me:
“Yes I am 6 months along!”
She told me that she had already picked out a name for her girl. I forgot what she said. I eventually clocked in and said hi to Jill because she was working today. Before my first task, Will had me clean two rubber mats outside, at first I experimented with sweeping them but it was futile. I changed to the gas power washer and had a far easier time cleaning it off. I could see all the brown water coming off of it. I went inside and saw that I had these 2 messages from my therapist:
<Come on back when you get here.
<I had you down for today at 915. Was this wrong? Thx.
I texted her:
>Yeah, but we can do Friday.
My first task was filling the beverage cooler even though I think John already filled it. I did that and then worked on my next tasks on my list, which included wiping a ton of windows. There were 3 window wiping tasks that were written all on one line today, a new development. I said hi to Paula a few times whenever I saw her. I got a peek at the employee list for today and saw that Sabrina was supposed to be on today and also Tiffany. I saw that Jill’s friend had started working here so I got introduced to her. We got in a shipment and started checking it to make sure everything was there, I wasn’t noticing things as much so Jesse told me I was just standing around. It was 12:30pm so I had to go order a prosciutto sandwich, I ordered it from Jill and she said to me:
“Gemerson, my hands feel super cold, see!”
And she reached and grabbed my forearm, I did the same. I got a blood orange soda and went up to the cash register to point at fAsherah and then went up to eat my lunch. I got down after that was done and continued on my work tasks. I had pointing contests with fAsherah a bit more and accidentally bumped into Matt and Folsade once. I had to sweep outside for one of my tasks just before 3:00pm and then I went on my break. I purchased some sugar taralli due to it being on a discount. I ate some of it for my break and offered some to fAsherah, she accepted them. I noticed at this point that Sabrina had called in sick while Tiffany wasn’t here at this point. I asked Anne’s replacement why she wasn’t here and she said:
“Tiffany called me and said she got stuck on the freeway.”
I just couldn’t stop laughing. We talked about this and then Tiffany came in at 3:45pm, I couldn’t stop laughing. I went upstairs for one of my tasks to clean but I overheard Anne’s replacement and Ignacio talking about giving Tiffany a warning about her being late. I completed all of my tasks and then talked to fAsherah about some job drama more, she told me this Black lady cashier started being late and fAsherah thought it was something about her being in the hospital or something. I gave fAsherah the drama on Tiffany getting a warning. I went into the office and found that another employee that I liked, whom I will be calling Matheus, he got a 2nd warning because of some issues with a customer. I wrote in my blog a bit more and did a walk around the store once because I was bored. Tiffany was upstairs on one of her numerous breaks so I offered her a piece of the sugar taralli. She took a singular bite and then rudely threw it into the garbage, I asked her:
“Did you not like it?”
She exclaimed:
“It tastes like a frosted saltine cracker!”
Wow, rude. I went on break and got off at 5:00am to start on my tasks, I could here one of the employees talking to Bill and his son (who also works here) asking if the son was mad at him or that he pissed him off, Bill and his son explained that they weren’t mad at him. I scrubbed the floor in the back while the normal brush broom kept slipping off the handle so I had to get a good new one. I completed scrubbing and drying at 5:32pm and then cleaned the bathrooms, next I emptied the trashes, brought in the umbrellas, and then finally faced the store. I clocked out and took the bus home. The blue haired girl I talked to said that her birthday is tomorrow and that she wants to move back home to Illinois. I got off and cooked myself some ramen for dinner before watching this Trent Horn video on some Protestant replying to his video on Sola Scriptura. I think Alligator Alcatraz isn’t really real (no actual alligators) but it demonstrates that some Trump supporters are psychopaths. If our government fed La Luz del Mundo members to alligators I would be ecstatic. I took a shower and then got into bed. While I was trying to go to sleep at 10:17pm, these Black people were playing music super loudly to the point it was distracting my blog writing.
Song of the Day: Apache - The Sugarhill Gang (1981)
July 11th, 2025: Milk and cereal for breakfast, I also brewed myself a cup of coffee with powdered creamer to go with it. I hopped on the bus at 8:45am to get to my therapy appointment by 9:15am, I got in slightly early and waited outside the door for a while, but she didn’t come in, I went over to this vending machine to try and get a Dr. Pepper can for $1.00 but it didn’t dispense 3 times. I went back and just left at 9:40pm to walk to work. It was a beautiful day on my walk in an older area with tall apartment buildings made of brick instead of those expensive 5-over-1 buildings with cheap building materials. I got over and clocked in at 10:23am, my tasks for the day were pretty standard including stocking the beverage cooler. I got that done and started on wiping down the windows for that task, while I was up front, I joked about fAsherah only having a 7 hour workshift and she complained:
“I want to work full time but Anne never schedules me for that much.”
I continued to clean the windows when this smoke from a grill filled the back and I was delighted by it. I came in to try some samples of chimichurri that Ignacio set up, Matheus was in charge of the samples and I had it slathered on a small piece of steak. It tasted extremely juicy and fresh. I went over to the old location with Jesse, Will, and John to help move stone tabletops over. At 12:18pm, fAsherah talked to me about a mop wife coming in, mishearing mob as mop, I thought she just had fancy light hair, her name is Debbie, she asked for Anne’s replacement and John’s friend. When I looked up her last name, I found a Wikipedia page on their family. I continued with all my tasks and completed them just in time for my second break at 3:00pm. I bought a slice of rich chocolate cake and because fAsherah was on break at the same time, I offered her some and she loved it. I wrote a bit more and went downstairs to see Silas, Tony, and Matheus talk about how if someone asked if a made man was a made man, you’d get killed. I heard the mob talk and told Tony about Debbie coming in, he told me that he went to high school with Theresa, whose paternal grandfather was Joseph, presumably the same as Debbie. He told me this story about them in science class together at the beginning of the year when the science teacher found out she was from that family he said:
“Well you’ll be getting an A in this class.”
I laughed a bit. There were some people from New Glarus Pale Ale sampling this flavor called Wild Grape Splash, I drank a shot of it and noticed it tastes just like Welch’s red grape flavored sparkling juice. It’s so comedic how we started off with an alcoholic wine that inspired a non-alcoholic juice, which in turn inspired an alcoholic beer. It was just too funny. I decided to help John with his uncompleted tasks by first sweeping every single stairway in the building, passing by Jab on one of them. I started stocking an aisle starting on the right and moving to the left, a bit later he started from the opposite side and then I saw Tony, Silas, and Ignacio talking about something together. I went to clock for my last break and I saw the three mentioned previously talking to a lot of people in the department about something. I went upstairs and heard Lebanon complaining about our street being shut down when 3 wine samplers were supposed to come tomorrow. A minute later. John came in near 5:00pm and told me:
“I just wanted to thank you Gemerson for helping me out with those tasks, even though I was hoping to beat the clock!”
I thanked him in return. I then started on my closing tasks after 5:00pm, I got all of them done before 6:30am and then talked to Anne’s replacement to ask her why Debbie came in, she told me:
“Oh it’s because she wanted to pick up some food from me and console John’s friend about the loss of the original owner!”
I ran over to the bus I needed, I texted Cliffe that I was going to be there at 7:15pm but I took the bus and it got me over there by 7:00pm, I ran in by 7:02pm to join Cliffe, Stuart, Jeremiah, Collum, and 4 others to discuss this guy’s poems in his book titled In which was 61 short poems written about him, he went on about how important the word In was, it’s the first word in the Bible and it’s the first word in the sign of the cross, eventually 2 others joined us, including the Mexican guy who works on a boat liner. The poet gave us a bottle of fine ground pepper (you grind your pepper yourself, the preground stuff is bland and has lost its flavor long before it hit the store shelves) to talk about our conversion stories. Cliffe talked about how when he lived at the discernment house 6 years ago, he hated the chore of pulling weeds despite being a pretty good Christian by then, he moved here and realized that he failed on that pretty easy stumbling block. The Mexican was up next, he recounted this experience of seeing a glowing cross at a young age but thinking nothing of it until later on in life where he compared his experience to that of the prophet in 2 Kings who heard God’s voice in the end of a cave. Writing this now I realized that he was referencing 1 Kings 19:9-13
☛9 And he came thither unto a cave, and lodged there; and, behold, the word of the Lord came to him, and he said unto him, What doest thou here, Elijah?
☛10 And he said, I have been very jealous for the Lord God of hosts: for the children of Israel have forsaken thy covenant, thrown down thine altars, and slain thy prophets with the sword; and I, even I only, am left; and they seek my life, to take it away.
☛11 And he said, Go forth, and stand upon the mount before the Lord. And, behold, the Lord passed by, and a great and strong wind rent the mountains, and brake in pieces the rocks before the Lord; but the Lord was not in the
wind: and after the wind an earthquake; but the Lord was not in the earthquake:
☛12 And after the earthquake a fire; but the Lord was not in the fire: and after the fire a still small voice.
☛13 And it was so, when Elijah heard it, that he wrapped his face in his mantle, and went out, and stood in the entering in of the cave. And, behold, there came a voice unto him, and said, What doest thou here, Elijah?
He mentioned having to ride 3 busses to something before he finally got a car and he is grateful for our community, another guy spoke about his story about how he struggled with once and one time while he was going to pleasure himself, he chucked his rosary he wore off of him and the moment it hit the bathroom floor. All the lust left him and he didn’t feel lustful for a month. Once he was done I spoke:
“Yeah so basically I was at my grandma’s funeral in June of 2024 and I wasn’t Catholic at this point, I mean my grandma was, she had 7 children and her second daughter was mom, well at her funeral, my cousin, a 7th Day Adventist pastor was giving a speech about how Christianity was the only religion in the world that preached salvation by faith alone. I was reading the Bible during the service and loving it. Well at the reception afterwards, I was playing with a different cousin's kid when my mom’s friend had a seizure, turns out his sister had a history of a mental disorder, well I saw that as a sign from God to change my ways.”
We got done with that at 8:00pm and Collum left at this time. I had some of the leftover shrimp jambalaya for dinner. I put too much seasoning on mine but it was not an issue for me. We went outside to start a fire and I picked up some trash with the grabbers to put it in the garbage, I got a filled bag and a singular Pepsi cup. The fire was going well but the clouds were dark around us due to rain. I took some pictures and posted them in the GroupMe groupchat. Cliffe attributed the lack of rain on us to God protecting us, although it started to drizzle after a few minutes, I had a can of beer to drink while the fire kept going despite the rain, we made our way in and I closed 2 windows. The office was emptied and replaced with a half assembled bedframe. Cliffe wanted me to help him assemble it but we had no idea how. I figured out the model (HEMNES bed frame black) and texted him the link to it. I used the 3D model on their website to move the metal parts into place. We played a game of Telestrations (you get a thing to write on with a dry erase marker and you either write a word from a picture, or write a picture from a word) . It was hilarious but I was kind of drunk at that point. I left at 9:53pm, discovering the house had 2 bathrooms next to each other. I got to the bus stop at 9:58pm and picked up some cans on the ground to put them in the trash while it rained. I hopped on the bus and messaged Jill because she liked a blackpill reel:
(POST SPLIT IN HALF DUE TO CHARACTER LIMIT)
“I want to work full time but Anne never schedules me for that much.”
I continued to clean the windows when this smoke from a grill filled the back and I was delighted by it. I came in to try some samples of chimichurri that Ignacio set up, Matheus was in charge of the samples and I had it slathered on a small piece of steak. It tasted extremely juicy and fresh. I went over to the old location with Jesse, Will, and John to help move stone tabletops over. At 12:18pm, fAsherah talked to me about a mop wife coming in, mishearing mob as mop, I thought she just had fancy light hair, her name is Debbie, she asked for Anne’s replacement and John’s friend. When I looked up her last name, I found a Wikipedia page on their family. I continued with all my tasks and completed them just in time for my second break at 3:00pm. I bought a slice of rich chocolate cake and because fAsherah was on break at the same time, I offered her some and she loved it. I wrote a bit more and went downstairs to see Silas, Tony, and Matheus talk about how if someone asked if a made man was a made man, you’d get killed. I heard the mob talk and told Tony about Debbie coming in, he told me that he went to high school with Theresa, whose paternal grandfather was Joseph, presumably the same as Debbie. He told me this story about them in science class together at the beginning of the year when the science teacher found out she was from that family he said:
“Well you’ll be getting an A in this class.”
I laughed a bit. There were some people from New Glarus Pale Ale sampling this flavor called Wild Grape Splash, I drank a shot of it and noticed it tastes just like Welch’s red grape flavored sparkling juice. It’s so comedic how we started off with an alcoholic wine that inspired a non-alcoholic juice, which in turn inspired an alcoholic beer. It was just too funny. I decided to help John with his uncompleted tasks by first sweeping every single stairway in the building, passing by Jab on one of them. I started stocking an aisle starting on the right and moving to the left, a bit later he started from the opposite side and then I saw Tony, Silas, and Ignacio talking about something together. I went to clock for my last break and I saw the three mentioned previously talking to a lot of people in the department about something. I went upstairs and heard Lebanon complaining about our street being shut down when 3 wine samplers were supposed to come tomorrow. A minute later. John came in near 5:00pm and told me:
“I just wanted to thank you Gemerson for helping me out with those tasks, even though I was hoping to beat the clock!”
I thanked him in return. I then started on my closing tasks after 5:00pm, I got all of them done before 6:30am and then talked to Anne’s replacement to ask her why Debbie came in, she told me:
“Oh it’s because she wanted to pick up some food from me and console John’s friend about the loss of the original owner!”
I ran over to the bus I needed, I texted Cliffe that I was going to be there at 7:15pm but I took the bus and it got me over there by 7:00pm, I ran in by 7:02pm to join Cliffe, Stuart, Jeremiah, Collum, and 4 others to discuss this guy’s poems in his book titled In which was 61 short poems written about him, he went on about how important the word In was, it’s the first word in the Bible and it’s the first word in the sign of the cross, eventually 2 others joined us, including the Mexican guy who works on a boat liner. The poet gave us a bottle of fine ground pepper (you grind your pepper yourself, the preground stuff is bland and has lost its flavor long before it hit the store shelves) to talk about our conversion stories. Cliffe talked about how when he lived at the discernment house 6 years ago, he hated the chore of pulling weeds despite being a pretty good Christian by then, he moved here and realized that he failed on that pretty easy stumbling block. The Mexican was up next, he recounted this experience of seeing a glowing cross at a young age but thinking nothing of it until later on in life where he compared his experience to that of the prophet in 2 Kings who heard God’s voice in the end of a cave. Writing this now I realized that he was referencing 1 Kings 19:9-13
☛9 And he came thither unto a cave, and lodged there; and, behold, the word of the Lord came to him, and he said unto him, What doest thou here, Elijah?
☛10 And he said, I have been very jealous for the Lord God of hosts: for the children of Israel have forsaken thy covenant, thrown down thine altars, and slain thy prophets with the sword; and I, even I only, am left; and they seek my life, to take it away.
☛11 And he said, Go forth, and stand upon the mount before the Lord. And, behold, the Lord passed by, and a great and strong wind rent the mountains, and brake in pieces the rocks before the Lord; but the Lord was not in the
wind: and after the wind an earthquake; but the Lord was not in the earthquake:
☛12 And after the earthquake a fire; but the Lord was not in the fire: and after the fire a still small voice.
☛13 And it was so, when Elijah heard it, that he wrapped his face in his mantle, and went out, and stood in the entering in of the cave. And, behold, there came a voice unto him, and said, What doest thou here, Elijah?
He mentioned having to ride 3 busses to something before he finally got a car and he is grateful for our community, another guy spoke about his story about how he struggled with once and one time while he was going to pleasure himself, he chucked his rosary he wore off of him and the moment it hit the bathroom floor. All the lust left him and he didn’t feel lustful for a month. Once he was done I spoke:
“Yeah so basically I was at my grandma’s funeral in June of 2024 and I wasn’t Catholic at this point, I mean my grandma was, she had 7 children and her second daughter was mom, well at her funeral, my cousin, a 7th Day Adventist pastor was giving a speech about how Christianity was the only religion in the world that preached salvation by faith alone. I was reading the Bible during the service and loving it. Well at the reception afterwards, I was playing with a different cousin's kid when my mom’s friend had a seizure, turns out his sister had a history of a mental disorder, well I saw that as a sign from God to change my ways.”
We got done with that at 8:00pm and Collum left at this time. I had some of the leftover shrimp jambalaya for dinner. I put too much seasoning on mine but it was not an issue for me. We went outside to start a fire and I picked up some trash with the grabbers to put it in the garbage, I got a filled bag and a singular Pepsi cup. The fire was going well but the clouds were dark around us due to rain. I took some pictures and posted them in the GroupMe groupchat. Cliffe attributed the lack of rain on us to God protecting us, although it started to drizzle after a few minutes, I had a can of beer to drink while the fire kept going despite the rain, we made our way in and I closed 2 windows. The office was emptied and replaced with a half assembled bedframe. Cliffe wanted me to help him assemble it but we had no idea how. I figured out the model (HEMNES bed frame black) and texted him the link to it. I used the 3D model on their website to move the metal parts into place. We played a game of Telestrations (you get a thing to write on with a dry erase marker and you either write a word from a picture, or write a picture from a word) . It was hilarious but I was kind of drunk at that point. I left at 9:53pm, discovering the house had 2 bathrooms next to each other. I got to the bus stop at 9:58pm and picked up some cans on the ground to put them in the trash while it rained. I hopped on the bus and messaged Jill because she liked a blackpill reel:
(POST SPLIT IN HALF DUE TO CHARACTER LIMIT)
4 weeks ago#52742
July 11th, 2025 (Continued):
>>Got caught liking looksmaxxing reels award
<LMAAOOOOOOOOO
<Don’t spy on me
>I just found it scrolling!
I also talked to the Green Bay girl about her story on getting a Labubu
>Goyim are never beating the cattle allegations.
<Bro shut the fuck up you don’t even understand how badly I’ve been wanting one for MONTHS
<god! Let me have fun!
<Are you allergic to joy, magic and fun??
>No, just mindless conformity.
<I’m not even conforming I just like fucking labubus!
<Shit!
>When did you start liking them?
<Months ago!!!
>Bait
<Months
>Bait
<Ok
The bus randomly decided to stop near my stop I got off at and didn’t move at all, there was this super annoying Indian guy playing TikToks at full volume in a mixture of Hindi, English, or a deformed baby language of the previous two, I walked out at 10:25pm to go home and encountered some bikers riding on Lime scooters, I got home, took a shower, wrote in my blog more, and went to sleep.
Song of the Day: La Mer - Chantal Chamberland (2008)
>>Got caught liking looksmaxxing reels award
<LMAAOOOOOOOOO
<Don’t spy on me
>I just found it scrolling!
I also talked to the Green Bay girl about her story on getting a Labubu
>Goyim are never beating the cattle allegations.
<Bro shut the fuck up you don’t even understand how badly I’ve been wanting one for MONTHS
<god! Let me have fun!
<Are you allergic to joy, magic and fun??
>No, just mindless conformity.
<I’m not even conforming I just like fucking labubus!
<Shit!
>When did you start liking them?
<Months ago!!!
>Bait
<Months
>Bait
<Ok
The bus randomly decided to stop near my stop I got off at and didn’t move at all, there was this super annoying Indian guy playing TikToks at full volume in a mixture of Hindi, English, or a deformed baby language of the previous two, I walked out at 10:25pm to go home and encountered some bikers riding on Lime scooters, I got home, took a shower, wrote in my blog more, and went to sleep.
Song of the Day: La Mer - Chantal Chamberland (2008)
4 weeks ago#52756
July 12th, 2025: Another day of work. I ran out of milk so I walked to take pictures of this famous place and then to the convenience store at 7:30am to buy some coffee creamer and 1% milk. I got back and had my cereal before heading into work. I had the regular task list today except for stocking a certain part of the store at the beginning after I completed the beverage cooler. I saw that Sabrina was back, I asked her what happened and she told me she was visiting Palatine, Illinois and after that, she was sick. I wrote on my clipboard for my task list on what I needed to pull downstairs. When I had my first break, I found some cheese bread sticks and loved eating them. I gave one to Sabrina to eat and she also loved it. I didn’t even find most of the stuff upstairs that I needed. I put them on the pallet jack and sent them down the conveyor belt. Someone had left a box on it but I couldn’t care because that’s what you shouldn’t do, there was no thud at all so I wasn’t concerned, when I got downstairs, I found a bunch of fruit spilled on the floor, mostly blueberries, raspberries, and limes, I picked up the limes and put them in the sink for the coworker who doesn’t speak English to clean off. I went to the floor to unload my pull. Jill and her friend were out there working on stocking some stuff, I helped them a bit as I emptied my cart. When I was done Jill came over and did the thing where she put her hand on my waist to pass me. I did a little jab at her side with my hand and she laughed a bit. fAsherah came in and we resumed our pointing contests. I went on my phone on break to scroll Xitter discussing low teacher salaries 50K and some guy named Green Biker Dude (@RepliforceGBD) wrote:
<Chicago public school teachers get over 100k.
I screenshotted it at 11:37am and sent it to my dad saying:
>Fact check
It was getting to be 1:30pm so I went over to get something to eat for lunch At 1:52pm, Geno posted on their Instagram story promoting a protest on Saturday, July 19th at this air & water show. Are leftists trying to be maximally dislikable? I got off of my break and had one more task to complete, I just decided to talk with Jill while she was on her lunch break, we were getting off work at the same time so I asked her:
“So do you want to do anything after work?”
She struck me down:
“No, I'm busy after work.”
She told me she was going to her grandma’s house to look at stuff they’re going to take, I asked if she was going to take any writings or books of hers but she didn’t say anything about it. My dad texted me back about the fact check:
<Yes, in the new contract. currently at 96 or so
I completed my last task quickly and then went downstairs to see the 3 wine samplers, but now it was up to 4 somehow. I ended up having 2 samples of wine while Lebanon was talking to them all. I got thanked by Paula for taking their cardboard out once. Matheus was continuing to sample Chimichurri on steaks and sausages for everyone to have. I couldn’t resist and had a good amount of samples throughout the day. When I went back later in the day, Matheus told me:
“By the way, Hill has been taking more samples than you”
I laughed so hard. Because of my lack of tasks, I worked on filling the beverage aisle for Hill and got that done, he thanked me for it and then I got started on my closing tasks, facing, cleaning the breakroom, and then cleaning the bathroom. While I was cleaning the bathrooms for my closing task, I had no headphones so I was alone in my thoughts. I remembered a bunch of times when it came clear to me how much my friends brushed me, them never inviting me out to anything and making fun of my mental health behind my back. which made me chuck the bottle of Pinesol spray at the ground in unconscious anger. It spilled a good amount of the floor, but the big issue was the spray nozzle being destroyed. I just used sanitizing wipes for the rest of the bathrooms. I emptied all the trashes and this biker wife told me:
“Thank you honey!”
While I just heard hogs cranking everywhere. I clocked out a bit early and walked up and down the street trying to find this one precise motorcycle owned by a certain lolcow, I even tried near their typical bar, but nothing, some cyclist was blaring My Neck, My Back by Khia. I walked over to my bus stop and got on, it let me off far from my typical stopping off point and I got home. I checked the messages in the family groupchat spurred by this image my sister sent:
Transcript:
<This kit is Forward Madison’s tribute to the state it proudly represents. From the terraces to the tailgates, these colors aren’t just worn — they’re lived. With every thread, every check, and every match played, we carry the state on our backs. - Forward Madison FC
<Kilt Kit! - Garnet
<The only thing that looks slightly Celtic is some plaid in the shorts? - mom
<it's cultural appropriation - dad
I watched some more YouTube, including this channel called GAKHED where they post videos of their cats with an old camera to maximize nostalgia, the I will follow you anywhere video of the grey kitten really made me tear up and I just made sad that I never mattered to anybody in my entire life and that because my pariahmark, I struggle to had people treat me normally instead of that one weird pal you consciously want deceased, thank you reader. I had some more of the bowtie pasta for dinner, wrote in my blog, took a shower, and went to sleep.
Song of the Day: My Neck, My Back (Lick It) - Khia (2002)
<Chicago public school teachers get over 100k.
I screenshotted it at 11:37am and sent it to my dad saying:
>Fact check
It was getting to be 1:30pm so I went over to get something to eat for lunch At 1:52pm, Geno posted on their Instagram story promoting a protest on Saturday, July 19th at this air & water show. Are leftists trying to be maximally dislikable? I got off of my break and had one more task to complete, I just decided to talk with Jill while she was on her lunch break, we were getting off work at the same time so I asked her:
“So do you want to do anything after work?”
She struck me down:
“No, I'm busy after work.”
She told me she was going to her grandma’s house to look at stuff they’re going to take, I asked if she was going to take any writings or books of hers but she didn’t say anything about it. My dad texted me back about the fact check:
<Yes, in the new contract. currently at 96 or so
I completed my last task quickly and then went downstairs to see the 3 wine samplers, but now it was up to 4 somehow. I ended up having 2 samples of wine while Lebanon was talking to them all. I got thanked by Paula for taking their cardboard out once. Matheus was continuing to sample Chimichurri on steaks and sausages for everyone to have. I couldn’t resist and had a good amount of samples throughout the day. When I went back later in the day, Matheus told me:
“By the way, Hill has been taking more samples than you”
I laughed so hard. Because of my lack of tasks, I worked on filling the beverage aisle for Hill and got that done, he thanked me for it and then I got started on my closing tasks, facing, cleaning the breakroom, and then cleaning the bathroom. While I was cleaning the bathrooms for my closing task, I had no headphones so I was alone in my thoughts. I remembered a bunch of times when it came clear to me how much my friends brushed me, them never inviting me out to anything and making fun of my mental health behind my back. which made me chuck the bottle of Pinesol spray at the ground in unconscious anger. It spilled a good amount of the floor, but the big issue was the spray nozzle being destroyed. I just used sanitizing wipes for the rest of the bathrooms. I emptied all the trashes and this biker wife told me:
“Thank you honey!”
While I just heard hogs cranking everywhere. I clocked out a bit early and walked up and down the street trying to find this one precise motorcycle owned by a certain lolcow, I even tried near their typical bar, but nothing, some cyclist was blaring My Neck, My Back by Khia. I walked over to my bus stop and got on, it let me off far from my typical stopping off point and I got home. I checked the messages in the family groupchat spurred by this image my sister sent:
Transcript:
<This kit is Forward Madison’s tribute to the state it proudly represents. From the terraces to the tailgates, these colors aren’t just worn — they’re lived. With every thread, every check, and every match played, we carry the state on our backs. - Forward Madison FC
<Kilt Kit! - Garnet
<The only thing that looks slightly Celtic is some plaid in the shorts? - mom
<it's cultural appropriation - dad
I watched some more YouTube, including this channel called GAKHED where they post videos of their cats with an old camera to maximize nostalgia, the I will follow you anywhere video of the grey kitten really made me tear up and I just made sad that I never mattered to anybody in my entire life and that because my pariahmark, I struggle to had people treat me normally instead of that one weird pal you consciously want deceased, thank you reader. I had some more of the bowtie pasta for dinner, wrote in my blog, took a shower, and went to sleep.
Song of the Day: My Neck, My Back (Lick It) - Khia (2002)
4 weeks ago#52775
July 13th, 2025: Cereal consumption first thing today, also some coffee. I listened to some music on my Xubuntu laptop. For the first time in a long time, I brought my lunchbox with a bowl and a grapefruit soda for work. At 8:02am I boarded the bus and sat in the back 5 seats, on the way I passed an Indian woman with her bare feet on the seat next to her. I got into work to see that the clock in machine was broken so we had to mark when we got in the old fashioned way, with pen and paper. I checked the list and saw that the date section was filled out with just 7/13 instead of including the year, so I wrote the date down for mine as 7/13/2025, I got in to start on filling the beverage cooler and got that done within an hour, I said hi to Lebanon, and emptied his cardboard for him. I went upstairs to brew myself some of this eggnog flavored coffee grounds in a reusable keurig cup, I waved to Sabrina and she waved back. While near the front after 9:30am, I saw Henry browsing the beverage cooler, we talked and he said he lived nearby and just got out of church, he recently started as a receptionist for this company but wants to get promoted to the development team, he also wanted to get all of the guys from the Catholic center to hang out, and he told me he’ll be able to refer me for a job if I wanted to and I agreed. He went up to talk to Biker and then go up and pay for it with the Noahmusic2009 lookalike. I found out it was Kaitlyn’s 22nd birthday today so I wished her a happy birthday on Snapchat. Matt saw me wearing my hat and asked:
“Growing out the hair Gemerson!”
My family had this conversation spurred by a picture of my cat at 9:10am:
<Sunday mornings! - dad
<She’s so perfect - Garnet
>She’s not paying rent but she’s nice
<Camping! - Garnet
I also checked what my dad texted me in response to the raise:
<Thing Alpha is set when she graduates
On Snapchat, James the Greater posted on his story an image of him in his uniform standing in front of a Space force sign. I later went into the office while vacuuming upstairs and talked to the office lady, she said she wanted to order some pizza flavored gouda cheese (not pizza with gouda instead of mozzarella) and I encouraged her to do it. Jesse then comes in to show me this wooden toolbox like thing he got me so I don’t lose stuff, it was all labeled with my items. Gemerson’s pen, Gemerson’s clipboard, Gemerson’s legal pad, Gemerson’s box cutter, Gemerson’s notepad, Gemerson’s 2 fruit leather strips, he talked to me about how he was born in Flint, Michigan and he joked that he probably drank the leaded water from their pipes. I decided to buy some cacio e pepe pasta mix for my lunch and microwaved it in a bowl for 8 minutes. I went to write my lunch break time on the sheet and saw that the people who got in after me wrote down the day as 7/13/25, including Folsade, Noahmusic2009 guy, Paula, Anne’s replacement, and Matheus including some unnamed people. At 12:32pm, this person I added on Snapchat posted this:
Transcript:
<So Y’all remember my ex Jonah, so ermmmm he messaged me, were back in contact
I wrote lunch time from 12:40pm to 1:10pm. I got a message from Jonah’s one night stand saying:
<Why’d you ss my story
This is too easy:
>Why’d you hookup with your ex?
When I got it done, there was a huge mess in the microwave because some of the sauce spilled on the floor of the microwave. I wiped it up with disinfectant wipes and then ate it. Sabrina and Lebanon both asked independently if it was good and affirmed them it was. I got back to work and stocked the shelves some more when Tiffany came into the store with a friend of hers and near the alcohol department when we were there. She said she lost her phone yesterday and she went with her friend to search and found it behind a tattoo place. fAsherah remarked:
“Looks like a certain 19 year old decided to wander to where the drinks are!”
I noticed that she had seemingly disappeared near the drinks and couldn’t find her since. I bought some more of the cheap cookies for everybody for my second break and continued working until I did my closings. I had the same as yesterday, which was cleaning different rooms and emptying the garbage. I clocked out and then took the bus home. When I got back I watched some YouTube videos, a video from Testify debunking Jehovah’s Witnesses views on Jesus being created (vs uncreated), a video from Cliffe Knechtle and Stuart Knechtle about them talking about Jehovah’s Witnesses at a university in Mississippi, a video on the rougelike game that can be played with a deck of cards called scoundrel by a YouTuber named Riffle Shuffle & Roll, and a video by Michael Button saying that there had been multiple human civilizations before us because of rare periods of global heating, in the comment section of the last one someone pointed out that such civilizations would deplete enough metal to leave a noticeable effect in the geological records. I went on Instagram to see Cara post about her trip to Hopkins, Belize, the Green Bay girl bragging about her new shark tattoo on her right arm, and Mercurius with his girlfriend on a picnic eating a cake with a picture of a dog on it with the song Bells Ringing playing. I got dressed for church and walked over, I heard Raphael talking about his mom’s health recovering and he was being an usher with Lucas. I saw 3 people that I recognized from college there: Kaitlin, the “Mixed race” girl, and Mahdi. Joseph sat to the left of me and this petite woman sat on the opposite of the pew from me, I noticed her engagement ring before but I saw it was on her left middle finger instead of her ring finger, the mass was ok and the priest gave a homily about the recent flooding in Texas with this example of 30 people going into a house to clean out the mud. He then talked about this event from a biography of someone who lived through World War 2 about treating surrendering German soldiers as human, after some more parts of the mass, I went up to receive the Eucharist, but I was in a state of Moral sin so I went up with my arms crossed, when you are usually supposed to get a blessing “In the name of the Father, the Son, and of the Holy Spirit.”
I instead got blessed:
“I blessed you by the body of Jesus”
Which was kind of disgusting at how theologically liberal the super old priest was, at the end I saw Tapper wearing the outfit of a young German boy and I said hi to the 3 people I mentioned before, I wished Kaitlin a happy birthday in person as we talked, she asked me what I am doing for the summer, I then walked home and took a shower. Well John MacArthur is dead now at 86 years and from my calculations, he’s going to the 5th layer of hell: 1 layer for practicing the heresy of non-denominationalism, 1 layer for the Calvinist heresy, 1 layer for the Nestorian heresy, and 2 layers for being from Los Angeles, California. And thus to bed.
Song of the Day: Bells Ringing - Mazzy Star (1993)
“Growing out the hair Gemerson!”
My family had this conversation spurred by a picture of my cat at 9:10am:
<Sunday mornings! - dad
<She’s so perfect - Garnet
>She’s not paying rent but she’s nice
<Camping! - Garnet
I also checked what my dad texted me in response to the raise:
<Thing Alpha is set when she graduates
On Snapchat, James the Greater posted on his story an image of him in his uniform standing in front of a Space force sign. I later went into the office while vacuuming upstairs and talked to the office lady, she said she wanted to order some pizza flavored gouda cheese (not pizza with gouda instead of mozzarella) and I encouraged her to do it. Jesse then comes in to show me this wooden toolbox like thing he got me so I don’t lose stuff, it was all labeled with my items. Gemerson’s pen, Gemerson’s clipboard, Gemerson’s legal pad, Gemerson’s box cutter, Gemerson’s notepad, Gemerson’s 2 fruit leather strips, he talked to me about how he was born in Flint, Michigan and he joked that he probably drank the leaded water from their pipes. I decided to buy some cacio e pepe pasta mix for my lunch and microwaved it in a bowl for 8 minutes. I went to write my lunch break time on the sheet and saw that the people who got in after me wrote down the day as 7/13/25, including Folsade, Noahmusic2009 guy, Paula, Anne’s replacement, and Matheus including some unnamed people. At 12:32pm, this person I added on Snapchat posted this:
Transcript:
<So Y’all remember my ex Jonah, so ermmmm he messaged me, were back in contact
I wrote lunch time from 12:40pm to 1:10pm. I got a message from Jonah’s one night stand saying:
<Why’d you ss my story
This is too easy:
>Why’d you hookup with your ex?
When I got it done, there was a huge mess in the microwave because some of the sauce spilled on the floor of the microwave. I wiped it up with disinfectant wipes and then ate it. Sabrina and Lebanon both asked independently if it was good and affirmed them it was. I got back to work and stocked the shelves some more when Tiffany came into the store with a friend of hers and near the alcohol department when we were there. She said she lost her phone yesterday and she went with her friend to search and found it behind a tattoo place. fAsherah remarked:
“Looks like a certain 19 year old decided to wander to where the drinks are!”
I noticed that she had seemingly disappeared near the drinks and couldn’t find her since. I bought some more of the cheap cookies for everybody for my second break and continued working until I did my closings. I had the same as yesterday, which was cleaning different rooms and emptying the garbage. I clocked out and then took the bus home. When I got back I watched some YouTube videos, a video from Testify debunking Jehovah’s Witnesses views on Jesus being created (vs uncreated), a video from Cliffe Knechtle and Stuart Knechtle about them talking about Jehovah’s Witnesses at a university in Mississippi, a video on the rougelike game that can be played with a deck of cards called scoundrel by a YouTuber named Riffle Shuffle & Roll, and a video by Michael Button saying that there had been multiple human civilizations before us because of rare periods of global heating, in the comment section of the last one someone pointed out that such civilizations would deplete enough metal to leave a noticeable effect in the geological records. I went on Instagram to see Cara post about her trip to Hopkins, Belize, the Green Bay girl bragging about her new shark tattoo on her right arm, and Mercurius with his girlfriend on a picnic eating a cake with a picture of a dog on it with the song Bells Ringing playing. I got dressed for church and walked over, I heard Raphael talking about his mom’s health recovering and he was being an usher with Lucas. I saw 3 people that I recognized from college there: Kaitlin, the “Mixed race” girl, and Mahdi. Joseph sat to the left of me and this petite woman sat on the opposite of the pew from me, I noticed her engagement ring before but I saw it was on her left middle finger instead of her ring finger, the mass was ok and the priest gave a homily about the recent flooding in Texas with this example of 30 people going into a house to clean out the mud. He then talked about this event from a biography of someone who lived through World War 2 about treating surrendering German soldiers as human, after some more parts of the mass, I went up to receive the Eucharist, but I was in a state of Moral sin so I went up with my arms crossed, when you are usually supposed to get a blessing “In the name of the Father, the Son, and of the Holy Spirit.”
I instead got blessed:
“I blessed you by the body of Jesus”
Which was kind of disgusting at how theologically liberal the super old priest was, at the end I saw Tapper wearing the outfit of a young German boy and I said hi to the 3 people I mentioned before, I wished Kaitlin a happy birthday in person as we talked, she asked me what I am doing for the summer, I then walked home and took a shower. Well John MacArthur is dead now at 86 years and from my calculations, he’s going to the 5th layer of hell: 1 layer for practicing the heresy of non-denominationalism, 1 layer for the Calvinist heresy, 1 layer for the Nestorian heresy, and 2 layers for being from Los Angeles, California. And thus to bed.
Song of the Day: Bells Ringing - Mazzy Star (1993)
4 weeks ago#52798
July 14th, 2025: Boring work. I woke up at 6:00am and went on my phone until 6:30am because I was so bored. I got up and made myself cereal with milk and then coffee. I brushed my teeth and then browsed Xitter to find out that a popular Catholic apologist Voice Of Reason was caught sending sexual messages to minors between the ages of 14 to 16. I saw this one video of him on Pints with Aquinas while smoking cigars saying that he doesn’t feel called to either the priesthood after entering seminary or marriage and is a committed single person.
I walked into the building and was let in by Seth M. I got my stuff from his office and setup before brewing the coffee, Zarith C told me put 2 scoops in and I did that before we got into the meeting room at 9:00am, it went well and here is the transcript of the CEO speaking along with his mentor:
"I brought somebody along that I've been talking with for. Geez, we've been trying to connect for a year and haven't come here. His name is [mentor], and the best way to describe [mentor], he's a cool cat. And the reason why I say that is that nothing ever phases [mentor]. I mean, I worked with him for years, and we had, you know, we have difficult customers, and we have difficult people, difficult employees, sometimes, difficult coworkers at a workplace, and nothing ever phase [mentor]. I mean, it was like cool, and I think I would describe it as it's the epitome of emotional intelligence, you, your emotional state, and your effect on everybody else, and everybody else's emotional state and the effect on yourself. But [mentor] would never let himself choose a negative side. He would just stick to what we were supposed to talk about. Yeah, something that was upset about something. You were for nothing that he had done, but it was in the area or close to his area. He would take responsibility for it. And I was like: ‘Whoa! why would you want to do that?’ I was young, and he would tell me. And he's even keeled. So basically order a common is to is that [mentor] is the single most individual mentor I've had that taught me how to manage situations, expectations, manage people, girl people, have a lot of ideas and you would always say, ‘Woah Nelly!’ you know, there were a lot of things I was put into. And sometimes you need a real driver, but you need to temper that driver. And so our boss, our mutual boss, [Mutual boss], brought me in, and John took me from being a hammer to somebody that was helpful, instead of a hammer. So you know, I can drive things, but [mentor] really, really knows how to do that. I'll let you explain your background. He's got a varied background and you're also military.”
“Yeah.” - Mentor
“So he's got quite a few disciplines under his belt and also is a big family man. We were just talking, we were late, sorry. We were talking about family. We had to catch up. His daughter, you said babysit my daughter, and that was a lot of fun. I think those two need to get together. Yes. Yeah. So now that my daughter is married and off doing her thing, and [Mentor’s daughter]'s got kids and doing her thing and oh, man, there's a lot of change going to use. But both [mentor] and I have a lot of contacts. and as I’m establishing my role here, I'm trying to reawaken all my contacts to see if there's tertiary context with them that I could use to help notify the community of our needs. And our needs are to take care of clients. So we talked about our clients, and then we'll see, we were just before I said, oh, we better get into the room next when we started talking about, maybe the community can help out more, with all the funding and changes and whatnot. So if you do me a big favor, when you I also wanted them to see our Monday meeting, so I can't think of a better place for somebody who's got deep contact with me to begin to understand this organization, but they here are Monday morning meetings. They're very extremely useful to me. And I'm hoping that at times they become more useful every time we do it for you, but it really gives a personal view to the outside world, even though they don't know the context or the acronyms. Acronyms, [mentor] and I are very used to acronyms, so we just need to know where they are. But to see, you can actually see your work that we're doing behind all that so. This is a great place for him to see how it works and how I'll talk to him afterwards…”
[I scribbled my name on the attendance sheet]
"Give him a little tour and let's do you a favor, just say your name and your title. That would be really useful. It gives me more context to talk about it. But before I turn it back over to Latinx lady, and her operational discussions. I wanted to talk about funding in general. We're starting to get more resolution on funding. Some of the directors have heard some of the funding that's coming in. We're not at a point where I can actually talk about what is the reactor reaction yet, because we still need to get more information from DC. But it's actually in my opinion, it's trending in a more positive direction. In other words, it's giving me more options, and the more options I have, the more ideas I can generate from my more take some of the ideas that I have, and then change them a little bit to adapt to what the conditions are. The other thing too, even and don't despair, even if we have reduction in funding, in certain areas, because now skip to the point where we're starting to look at what areas we're getting reduced. That's what's happening. That all that means to me is, oh, now I know exactly what they ask for from the community. And knowing what your problem is, is more than half the solution. If you know what the problem is. And so we're getting more and more resolution on that. So when Latinx lady and I go to Salt Lake City and then we go to DC, and then we do more [event] type things in the fall. We'll have a better idea of both she and I will have a better idea of how we're going to shape the resources that we're given to match what's going on here. My admonishment for all of you, though, is just like I said last week for any of the anxiety you have, remember, if you can, I'm not saying you shouldn't take a mental state, but if you if you do get anxiety and that's, like, worrisome thoughts about the future. Don't take a mental health day. Instead try coming in and working anyway, because I want to remind you what I said last week, and that is that when we actually show up, when a person shows up in spite of what's going on with them, you feel like nothing's good for you. Nothing's happening, positive for you. I have so many difficulties. People at work don't understand what I do. Persist and go forward because you are actually a blessing to other people. Our clients need you right where you're at in the state that you are in, because you have more than native, just think about some of you, think about where you came from. Focus on what you can do in front of you, because every little bit of goodness that we give somebody else is going to help them. And in doing so, that'll take some of that anxiety, that energy from that, and put it towards something more useful in your life. Uhm it may even actually do some physiological things. For me, it does. My blood pressure goes down. So I'm like a little lab rat right now with all the medical stuff monitoring that they’re doing, you know. So I know exactly when I have stress and what happens, so I'm learning more about myself. So I started thinking about that for you guys. It doesn't matter how old you are. Our bodies react to how we think. And so if you want to feel better physically, you know change those thoughts, or as something you can actually do in front of it here in control of it first. And then if you still have problems, make sure to talk to your supervisor, we might be able to help out, too. You know, like I might if I Latinx lady me she's worried about something, I might hear her more than that's possible. She says, I always give her more work. So, you know, I think that we have an opportunity here, because goodness is here at [company]. I can't express how thrilled I am to hear last week that at a public meeting one of the state officials said, I think we should let [company] take the lead on this. I mean, that is really cool. I mean when you hear that from the state. So, that's just one aspect of [company]. We have quite a few other things going on here that are good. So it's real exciting to watch what we can do in spite of what's going on around us, and also remember the news is hype. It's more sensationalized than anything else. There's some truth to it, but there again, focus on what's in front of you and what you can do. If you want to find out more about what's going on when you see in the news, you can ask your supervisor, I might have some real reality from DC on it. You never know. But you'll also keep in mind, I probably know just as much as you did, it's very. It's very hard to do with the unknown. So and then one little tidbit for growth, I thought I would start doing this on Mondays. take one topic and then start teaching you what is the difference between the two. And so today I decided to, because I have a great leader next to me to my right, I looked at the word leadership, and I looked at the word management, leader, manager, what's the difference? A manager deals with the known. Manages the known. Deals with models that are already created, holds the line to what things are set. A leader will take everybody and march to and through the unknown, that's what the leader does. And then based on the unknown, you might start to see…”
(POST SPLIT INTO MULTIPLE PARTS DUE TO WORD COUNT)
I walked into the building and was let in by Seth M. I got my stuff from his office and setup before brewing the coffee, Zarith C told me put 2 scoops in and I did that before we got into the meeting room at 9:00am, it went well and here is the transcript of the CEO speaking along with his mentor:
"I brought somebody along that I've been talking with for. Geez, we've been trying to connect for a year and haven't come here. His name is [mentor], and the best way to describe [mentor], he's a cool cat. And the reason why I say that is that nothing ever phases [mentor]. I mean, I worked with him for years, and we had, you know, we have difficult customers, and we have difficult people, difficult employees, sometimes, difficult coworkers at a workplace, and nothing ever phase [mentor]. I mean, it was like cool, and I think I would describe it as it's the epitome of emotional intelligence, you, your emotional state, and your effect on everybody else, and everybody else's emotional state and the effect on yourself. But [mentor] would never let himself choose a negative side. He would just stick to what we were supposed to talk about. Yeah, something that was upset about something. You were for nothing that he had done, but it was in the area or close to his area. He would take responsibility for it. And I was like: ‘Whoa! why would you want to do that?’ I was young, and he would tell me. And he's even keeled. So basically order a common is to is that [mentor] is the single most individual mentor I've had that taught me how to manage situations, expectations, manage people, girl people, have a lot of ideas and you would always say, ‘Woah Nelly!’ you know, there were a lot of things I was put into. And sometimes you need a real driver, but you need to temper that driver. And so our boss, our mutual boss, [Mutual boss], brought me in, and John took me from being a hammer to somebody that was helpful, instead of a hammer. So you know, I can drive things, but [mentor] really, really knows how to do that. I'll let you explain your background. He's got a varied background and you're also military.”
“Yeah.” - Mentor
“So he's got quite a few disciplines under his belt and also is a big family man. We were just talking, we were late, sorry. We were talking about family. We had to catch up. His daughter, you said babysit my daughter, and that was a lot of fun. I think those two need to get together. Yes. Yeah. So now that my daughter is married and off doing her thing, and [Mentor’s daughter]'s got kids and doing her thing and oh, man, there's a lot of change going to use. But both [mentor] and I have a lot of contacts. and as I’m establishing my role here, I'm trying to reawaken all my contacts to see if there's tertiary context with them that I could use to help notify the community of our needs. And our needs are to take care of clients. So we talked about our clients, and then we'll see, we were just before I said, oh, we better get into the room next when we started talking about, maybe the community can help out more, with all the funding and changes and whatnot. So if you do me a big favor, when you I also wanted them to see our Monday meeting, so I can't think of a better place for somebody who's got deep contact with me to begin to understand this organization, but they here are Monday morning meetings. They're very extremely useful to me. And I'm hoping that at times they become more useful every time we do it for you, but it really gives a personal view to the outside world, even though they don't know the context or the acronyms. Acronyms, [mentor] and I are very used to acronyms, so we just need to know where they are. But to see, you can actually see your work that we're doing behind all that so. This is a great place for him to see how it works and how I'll talk to him afterwards…”
[I scribbled my name on the attendance sheet]
"Give him a little tour and let's do you a favor, just say your name and your title. That would be really useful. It gives me more context to talk about it. But before I turn it back over to Latinx lady, and her operational discussions. I wanted to talk about funding in general. We're starting to get more resolution on funding. Some of the directors have heard some of the funding that's coming in. We're not at a point where I can actually talk about what is the reactor reaction yet, because we still need to get more information from DC. But it's actually in my opinion, it's trending in a more positive direction. In other words, it's giving me more options, and the more options I have, the more ideas I can generate from my more take some of the ideas that I have, and then change them a little bit to adapt to what the conditions are. The other thing too, even and don't despair, even if we have reduction in funding, in certain areas, because now skip to the point where we're starting to look at what areas we're getting reduced. That's what's happening. That all that means to me is, oh, now I know exactly what they ask for from the community. And knowing what your problem is, is more than half the solution. If you know what the problem is. And so we're getting more and more resolution on that. So when Latinx lady and I go to Salt Lake City and then we go to DC, and then we do more [event] type things in the fall. We'll have a better idea of both she and I will have a better idea of how we're going to shape the resources that we're given to match what's going on here. My admonishment for all of you, though, is just like I said last week for any of the anxiety you have, remember, if you can, I'm not saying you shouldn't take a mental state, but if you if you do get anxiety and that's, like, worrisome thoughts about the future. Don't take a mental health day. Instead try coming in and working anyway, because I want to remind you what I said last week, and that is that when we actually show up, when a person shows up in spite of what's going on with them, you feel like nothing's good for you. Nothing's happening, positive for you. I have so many difficulties. People at work don't understand what I do. Persist and go forward because you are actually a blessing to other people. Our clients need you right where you're at in the state that you are in, because you have more than native, just think about some of you, think about where you came from. Focus on what you can do in front of you, because every little bit of goodness that we give somebody else is going to help them. And in doing so, that'll take some of that anxiety, that energy from that, and put it towards something more useful in your life. Uhm it may even actually do some physiological things. For me, it does. My blood pressure goes down. So I'm like a little lab rat right now with all the medical stuff monitoring that they’re doing, you know. So I know exactly when I have stress and what happens, so I'm learning more about myself. So I started thinking about that for you guys. It doesn't matter how old you are. Our bodies react to how we think. And so if you want to feel better physically, you know change those thoughts, or as something you can actually do in front of it here in control of it first. And then if you still have problems, make sure to talk to your supervisor, we might be able to help out, too. You know, like I might if I Latinx lady me she's worried about something, I might hear her more than that's possible. She says, I always give her more work. So, you know, I think that we have an opportunity here, because goodness is here at [company]. I can't express how thrilled I am to hear last week that at a public meeting one of the state officials said, I think we should let [company] take the lead on this. I mean, that is really cool. I mean when you hear that from the state. So, that's just one aspect of [company]. We have quite a few other things going on here that are good. So it's real exciting to watch what we can do in spite of what's going on around us, and also remember the news is hype. It's more sensationalized than anything else. There's some truth to it, but there again, focus on what's in front of you and what you can do. If you want to find out more about what's going on when you see in the news, you can ask your supervisor, I might have some real reality from DC on it. You never know. But you'll also keep in mind, I probably know just as much as you did, it's very. It's very hard to do with the unknown. So and then one little tidbit for growth, I thought I would start doing this on Mondays. take one topic and then start teaching you what is the difference between the two. And so today I decided to, because I have a great leader next to me to my right, I looked at the word leadership, and I looked at the word management, leader, manager, what's the difference? A manager deals with the known. Manages the known. Deals with models that are already created, holds the line to what things are set. A leader will take everybody and march to and through the unknown, that's what the leader does. And then based on the unknown, you might start to see…”
(POST SPLIT INTO MULTIPLE PARTS DUE TO WORD COUNT)
4 weeks ago#52806
July 14th, 2025 (Continued): [yawn]
“...based on past experience, maybe we should try this metric measure. something that we need to measure or to see if we're being successful or not, and give that to the manager. Now they have a new thing to manage, and they can focus on something real, that's not unknown anymore. So a leader focuses on the unknown, leads people, pushes people through the unknown, and the manager will actually deal with the known. Now, can you be a leader and a manager? at the same time? Manager and a leader? Yeah. That's kind of unique. Can you be a leader and a manager? Yeah, but I think that might be a little tough. Because usually the roles require you to think a certain way that makes it hard for you to manage. More holistic is the leader, a little bit more detail oriented than the manager, those types of things. We'll probably talk about those two roles over the next couple of weeks, and then the following week after that, I'll talk with the difference between a manager and a coordinator. And then hopefully, you guys will start to see your career progress based on what role you get. And what things you might want to actually talk to your supervisor about for your goals, for your next step, and that type of thing. So I talked to Latinx lady two or three times a week about, what's the future? What do you want to do, Latinx lady? and she always tells me what she wants to do. Somebody said, I can't remember who you said, Latinx lady’s always like 10 steps ahead of us. I can't remember who you said that. I don't embarrass the person who said that, but they said that she's always ten to. And the reason why is that Latinx lady is always learning things. We need to become lifelong learners. And that's why you become somebody ahead who can actually see ahead. So now I keep that up. So as the funding starts to jell, I would probably say, what do you think, August, middle of August…”
“August” - Latinx lady
“...have a better idea of like options that we're going to give the board, because they have a full board meeting coming up in September. And we're going to give them two options and a recommendation, and we'll talk about a third one, which is possible to work, but I'm not going to do that once. for sure. But we're going to have some initial direction, and I'm going to share that with you before I go to the board, and then let you know what the board accepted or maybe even refined, you know, they refined things. And that's why their board of directors went in this direction. So probably look in the middle of August. So until the middle of August, I want you to control your thoughts and focus on what you're doing right now. Finish your contracts for the year. Finish really strong, sprint to the end, get those documents done. I think we have some monitoring coming up.. With [acronym]. Next week. And so I'd like everybody to be a sharp. You never know who's going to walk through the door. Wisconsin literacy is a subcontractor underneath [acronym]. it would be conceivable that [acronym] would just show up at any time. So make sure you have all of your documents put away. Any sensitive materials, put it away, lock it up every night. You're going to be away from your desk for a significant amount of time, put it away. That's the biggest thing that they look for you now is personal identifiable information. If you have any documentation you're going to keep it current. No matter just because you're not being monitored right now, there is no reason why [acronym] can't just come in and say, I want to see X, Y, Z. So, you know, just keep on your toes. I guess those days are going to be published, so we don't want to make sure that we have our professional appearance too those days. Make adjustments to your client schedules too. So we want them to see the activity rate. That's what's going on there. But I just wanted to, say, you know, thank for everything, you guys are doing. And before we start, I'll let [mentor] tell you about himself…
“Which I'm not good at!” - [mentor]
[laughter]
“Again, good morning, everybody!”
“Good morning!” - All people
“I can't tell you what a pleasure it is to finally be here. Yeilxáak and I have been trying to make an arrangement for us to get together. separated years and years ago and evolved thought of him and obviously he's often thought of
me. So we'd always tried to get back together and now it's happened. So I appreciate that very much. And you were…
[laughter]
“...a very good employee…”
[laughter]
“No, um I my career has been 44 years. I've been in IT and I always had the goal where I wanted to be to see how I became the Chief Information Officer of an organization. And I was blessed. That's how I ended up. It was a long time going. But my goal was always, how do I bring people? Our customers and our employees together and uhm because we had a huge in and everything. We worked for the different organizations that I worked for, and I was managing the IT department. I started in 1972 and in six months, just doing what I do and I just do it. People praised me. I don't do that. I was made programming manager and allowed me to bring all of our programmers and all of our customers and how we worked to get and treat each other, because it's all about us and we can't be having disagreements, so people blowing up or being upset. There's always always a solution, and it's always together. There's a better solution. That's what we've always worked towards. And I just went through the years and different positions. I kept going up the ladder and I changed organizations and I was always blessed. I enjoy working with people. It's all about people, and. I'll never allow two people being in a fight because whatever caused that fight was wrong. And so we get to the root of it and figure out a way that we're all going to work together for the benefit of themselves, as well as the organization, as well as our customer base. And it's good. Yeilxáak just had a pedestal. But it's nothing that I can sit here and I'm humbled. It's the people that make me who I am, and I'm making the people who they are. That's what it's all about. So, again, I thank you so much for allowing me to be here and just just listen. I enjoy that very much. Feel free if you want to come up and talk to me, ask me questions. It's okay. I'd be more than happy to do that. Again, thank you!”
“You're welcome!” - Me
“Thank you.” - Everybody
(POST SPLIT INTO MULTIPLE PARTS DUE TO WORD COUNT)
“...based on past experience, maybe we should try this metric measure. something that we need to measure or to see if we're being successful or not, and give that to the manager. Now they have a new thing to manage, and they can focus on something real, that's not unknown anymore. So a leader focuses on the unknown, leads people, pushes people through the unknown, and the manager will actually deal with the known. Now, can you be a leader and a manager? at the same time? Manager and a leader? Yeah. That's kind of unique. Can you be a leader and a manager? Yeah, but I think that might be a little tough. Because usually the roles require you to think a certain way that makes it hard for you to manage. More holistic is the leader, a little bit more detail oriented than the manager, those types of things. We'll probably talk about those two roles over the next couple of weeks, and then the following week after that, I'll talk with the difference between a manager and a coordinator. And then hopefully, you guys will start to see your career progress based on what role you get. And what things you might want to actually talk to your supervisor about for your goals, for your next step, and that type of thing. So I talked to Latinx lady two or three times a week about, what's the future? What do you want to do, Latinx lady? and she always tells me what she wants to do. Somebody said, I can't remember who you said, Latinx lady’s always like 10 steps ahead of us. I can't remember who you said that. I don't embarrass the person who said that, but they said that she's always ten to. And the reason why is that Latinx lady is always learning things. We need to become lifelong learners. And that's why you become somebody ahead who can actually see ahead. So now I keep that up. So as the funding starts to jell, I would probably say, what do you think, August, middle of August…”
“August” - Latinx lady
“...have a better idea of like options that we're going to give the board, because they have a full board meeting coming up in September. And we're going to give them two options and a recommendation, and we'll talk about a third one, which is possible to work, but I'm not going to do that once. for sure. But we're going to have some initial direction, and I'm going to share that with you before I go to the board, and then let you know what the board accepted or maybe even refined, you know, they refined things. And that's why their board of directors went in this direction. So probably look in the middle of August. So until the middle of August, I want you to control your thoughts and focus on what you're doing right now. Finish your contracts for the year. Finish really strong, sprint to the end, get those documents done. I think we have some monitoring coming up.. With [acronym]. Next week. And so I'd like everybody to be a sharp. You never know who's going to walk through the door. Wisconsin literacy is a subcontractor underneath [acronym]. it would be conceivable that [acronym] would just show up at any time. So make sure you have all of your documents put away. Any sensitive materials, put it away, lock it up every night. You're going to be away from your desk for a significant amount of time, put it away. That's the biggest thing that they look for you now is personal identifiable information. If you have any documentation you're going to keep it current. No matter just because you're not being monitored right now, there is no reason why [acronym] can't just come in and say, I want to see X, Y, Z. So, you know, just keep on your toes. I guess those days are going to be published, so we don't want to make sure that we have our professional appearance too those days. Make adjustments to your client schedules too. So we want them to see the activity rate. That's what's going on there. But I just wanted to, say, you know, thank for everything, you guys are doing. And before we start, I'll let [mentor] tell you about himself…
“Which I'm not good at!” - [mentor]
[laughter]
“Again, good morning, everybody!”
“Good morning!” - All people
“I can't tell you what a pleasure it is to finally be here. Yeilxáak and I have been trying to make an arrangement for us to get together. separated years and years ago and evolved thought of him and obviously he's often thought of
me. So we'd always tried to get back together and now it's happened. So I appreciate that very much. And you were…
[laughter]
“...a very good employee…”
[laughter]
“No, um I my career has been 44 years. I've been in IT and I always had the goal where I wanted to be to see how I became the Chief Information Officer of an organization. And I was blessed. That's how I ended up. It was a long time going. But my goal was always, how do I bring people? Our customers and our employees together and uhm because we had a huge in and everything. We worked for the different organizations that I worked for, and I was managing the IT department. I started in 1972 and in six months, just doing what I do and I just do it. People praised me. I don't do that. I was made programming manager and allowed me to bring all of our programmers and all of our customers and how we worked to get and treat each other, because it's all about us and we can't be having disagreements, so people blowing up or being upset. There's always always a solution, and it's always together. There's a better solution. That's what we've always worked towards. And I just went through the years and different positions. I kept going up the ladder and I changed organizations and I was always blessed. I enjoy working with people. It's all about people, and. I'll never allow two people being in a fight because whatever caused that fight was wrong. And so we get to the root of it and figure out a way that we're all going to work together for the benefit of themselves, as well as the organization, as well as our customer base. And it's good. Yeilxáak just had a pedestal. But it's nothing that I can sit here and I'm humbled. It's the people that make me who I am, and I'm making the people who they are. That's what it's all about. So, again, I thank you so much for allowing me to be here and just just listen. I enjoy that very much. Feel free if you want to come up and talk to me, ask me questions. It's okay. I'd be more than happy to do that. Again, thank you!”
“You're welcome!” - Me
“Thank you.” - Everybody
(POST SPLIT INTO MULTIPLE PARTS DUE TO WORD COUNT)
4 weeks ago#52823
July 14th, 2025 [continued]: The others went around and introduced themselves, when it was my turn to talk, I just said I was an intern here. After that the mentor told me that interns are important and fist bumped both the former intern and I. I went back to make my coffee and added the sugar free cinnamon and sugar flavor syrup. I went back to my desk and had Seth M take my USB-C to 7 other ports because he needed to convert to HDMI. Vannie told me she wasn’t in Belize with Cara, While in the back I found a bunch of papers in the corner behind these drawers, there were a lot and here they are in chronological order, starting off with the undated stuff:
A preparation for communion letter
A card which explained the meaning of the 66 books (even though there’s 73) books of the Bible, with modern measurements on the other side.
Ephesians NIV writing:
<Ephesians 2:8-10
☛8 For it is by grace you have been saved,through faith—and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God—
☛9 not by works, so that no one can boast.
☛10 For we are God’s handiwork,created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.
Luke NIV writing:
<Luke 24:53 44 b
☛44 …“This is what I told you while I was still with you: Everything must be fulfilled that is written about me in the Law of Moses, the Prophets and the Psalms.”
<Luke 24:46-47
☛46 “This is what is written: The Messiah will suffer and rise from the dead on the third day,
☛47 and repentance for the forgiveness of sins will be preached in his name to all nations, beginning at Jerusalem.
Forget-Me-Nots:
<Prayer from Pete B 4/24/15
<My Lord and my God, I praise You, Jesus, for who You are and what You have done. You have removed my sin in a single day. You have taken off my filth and clothed me with clean, fine garments. What can I do except lift empty hands in thanks and praise to You today?
Sandy’s email:
<From: sandy
<Sent: Wednesday, September 18, 2019 4:07pm
<To: Gail; Gloria; Beth; Shirley; Jo; Kimberly
<Hello ladies! I haven't quite figured out the best way to get all the emails on one list but they all are in my computer so here are the prayer requests from last night.
<Beth - Prayers for mom's health, she is really starting to slow down. Also prayers for her sister's health, she's been having some anxiety recently.
<Gail - Pray for organization in my mind, my time and my possessions. It has become a real problem with me not doing what I need to do.
<Gloria Praise for good test results for Nikki. Pray for Abbey that she will take her medication.
<Kim Pray for a positive attitude at work and that I would see my students & their families as God sees them.
<Shirley Still hoping for a teacher aide job. Also, for Peggy - she needs Jesus.
<Sandy Prayer for Steve's diagnosis of bone cancer and a second opinion.
<Jo, if you have a prayer request, let me know and I will add it to our list.
<Have a good week everyone!
<-Sandy
A card from Harvest Commitment where Steve and Sandy agreed to give $100.00 per month to the organization dated October 23, 2019
An August 2021 letter from In Touch Ministries by Pastor Charles F. Stanley, who was just begging Sandra and Steve for money, I’m not gonna transcribe it here because it’s meh.
After that I got some coffee, Ahwahn came in and talked with me a bit, alternating between brushing her hair in front or behind her ears. The rest of the day I did nothing, but at lunch I ended up going to the same restaurant at the same time as Portia.
At 2:25pm, I got a message from Jill which led to this conversation:
<Hey can I ask you something?
>Yes you can!
<So someone said that you like me ? I won’t tell you who but is that true ?
>I don’t ever remember saying that, but we’re coworkers so there’s some issues there.
<I mean it was just a simple yes or no nothing else you know
>Kinda
<Wym kinda and what type of like ??
>Yes as a friend.
<Okay bet that’s all I needed to clarify
>Who even talked to you by the way?
>About me?
<I can’t say names I promised them uk
>[her friend]
<No lol out of all people no
>Plus I remember seeing you text someone named: “Love of My Life” once.
<Ohhhh my home boy yep yep we was baby’s born in the same hospital and shi our moms know each other and everything
<So yeah I have no relationship with him though
I wrote in my blog in short bursts many times. I got introduced to these 2 people from another company by Harmony C. A bit later I saw Helly R for the first time in forever. It was near clockout time for me so I put my stuff back and gave back my keyfob before walking over to my store with my backpack in tow. I got in and put it in the front office. I went upfront to buy some fruit punch Powerade but I accidentally went to Tiffany’s lane and she groaned:
“Please don’t play games with me Gemerson!”
I quipped:
“Sorry but I didn’t bring a chess board.”
I went over to the Noahmusic2009 guy’s lane when John was there and bought it, I proclaimed:
“At least someone’s appreciative!”
Tiffany gave me that look and Noahmusic2009 guy chuckled. I bought it and drank it, I said hi to John before clocking in. I sat in the office for a while as Anne’s replacement and I waited for Silas to complete his part of the delivery. Anne’s replacement said I was so sweet for helping them with her delivery. Tiffany came in and I noticed she was wearing a red Pabst t-shirt. I then went back to bring the stuff to the delivery ban along with the sheet. We drove 8 miles to this rich suburb in the county through a run down street. She told me how the delivery her and Silas did 2 days ago was awful for the wedding because the organizers did not realize how little space they had as compared to the sheer amount of food ordered. We got there and were amazed at the 2 story brick house, it had a fancy backyard with some deer props out in the lawn, a long table of old ladies was sitting there and we helped setup when we realized on the drive back we forgot the cookies in a text from the Noahmusic2009 guy, I got back and half did the floor despite me thinking that Jill would have done it. I then decided to buy some new sauce they have and some expensive pasta. I asked the Noahmusic2009 guy if it was good and he told me he had it on these ramen-like noodles. The guy behind me quipped that they should put their stuff on my card, but I sadly can’t extend my employee discount. I went into the back to grab some expired food, including burrata filling and some yogurt. As I was walking up to the office, Silas had some capocollo that had an expiration date today and offered it back, I asked for it and took it. I took the bus home and then watched some more Star Wars YouTube videos. I should re-watch the Star Wars movie series. I took a shower and then went to bed.
Song of the Day: I’ll Wait - Van Halen (1984)
A preparation for communion letter
A card which explained the meaning of the 66 books (even though there’s 73) books of the Bible, with modern measurements on the other side.
Ephesians NIV writing:
<Ephesians 2:8-10
☛8 For it is by grace you have been saved,through faith—and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God—
☛9 not by works, so that no one can boast.
☛10 For we are God’s handiwork,created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.
Luke NIV writing:
<Luke 24:53 44 b
☛44 …“This is what I told you while I was still with you: Everything must be fulfilled that is written about me in the Law of Moses, the Prophets and the Psalms.”
<Luke 24:46-47
☛46 “This is what is written: The Messiah will suffer and rise from the dead on the third day,
☛47 and repentance for the forgiveness of sins will be preached in his name to all nations, beginning at Jerusalem.
Forget-Me-Nots:
<Prayer from Pete B 4/24/15
<My Lord and my God, I praise You, Jesus, for who You are and what You have done. You have removed my sin in a single day. You have taken off my filth and clothed me with clean, fine garments. What can I do except lift empty hands in thanks and praise to You today?
Sandy’s email:
<From: sandy
<Sent: Wednesday, September 18, 2019 4:07pm
<To: Gail; Gloria; Beth; Shirley; Jo; Kimberly
<Hello ladies! I haven't quite figured out the best way to get all the emails on one list but they all are in my computer so here are the prayer requests from last night.
<Beth - Prayers for mom's health, she is really starting to slow down. Also prayers for her sister's health, she's been having some anxiety recently.
<Gail - Pray for organization in my mind, my time and my possessions. It has become a real problem with me not doing what I need to do.
<Gloria Praise for good test results for Nikki. Pray for Abbey that she will take her medication.
<Kim Pray for a positive attitude at work and that I would see my students & their families as God sees them.
<Shirley Still hoping for a teacher aide job. Also, for Peggy - she needs Jesus.
<Sandy Prayer for Steve's diagnosis of bone cancer and a second opinion.
<Jo, if you have a prayer request, let me know and I will add it to our list.
<Have a good week everyone!
<-Sandy
A card from Harvest Commitment where Steve and Sandy agreed to give $100.00 per month to the organization dated October 23, 2019
An August 2021 letter from In Touch Ministries by Pastor Charles F. Stanley, who was just begging Sandra and Steve for money, I’m not gonna transcribe it here because it’s meh.
After that I got some coffee, Ahwahn came in and talked with me a bit, alternating between brushing her hair in front or behind her ears. The rest of the day I did nothing, but at lunch I ended up going to the same restaurant at the same time as Portia.
At 2:25pm, I got a message from Jill which led to this conversation:
<Hey can I ask you something?
>Yes you can!
<So someone said that you like me ? I won’t tell you who but is that true ?
>I don’t ever remember saying that, but we’re coworkers so there’s some issues there.
<I mean it was just a simple yes or no nothing else you know
>Kinda
<Wym kinda and what type of like ??
>Yes as a friend.
<Okay bet that’s all I needed to clarify
>Who even talked to you by the way?
>About me?
<I can’t say names I promised them uk
>[her friend]
<No lol out of all people no
>Plus I remember seeing you text someone named: “Love of My Life” once.
<Ohhhh my home boy yep yep we was baby’s born in the same hospital and shi our moms know each other and everything
<So yeah I have no relationship with him though
I wrote in my blog in short bursts many times. I got introduced to these 2 people from another company by Harmony C. A bit later I saw Helly R for the first time in forever. It was near clockout time for me so I put my stuff back and gave back my keyfob before walking over to my store with my backpack in tow. I got in and put it in the front office. I went upfront to buy some fruit punch Powerade but I accidentally went to Tiffany’s lane and she groaned:
“Please don’t play games with me Gemerson!”
I quipped:
“Sorry but I didn’t bring a chess board.”
I went over to the Noahmusic2009 guy’s lane when John was there and bought it, I proclaimed:
“At least someone’s appreciative!”
Tiffany gave me that look and Noahmusic2009 guy chuckled. I bought it and drank it, I said hi to John before clocking in. I sat in the office for a while as Anne’s replacement and I waited for Silas to complete his part of the delivery. Anne’s replacement said I was so sweet for helping them with her delivery. Tiffany came in and I noticed she was wearing a red Pabst t-shirt. I then went back to bring the stuff to the delivery ban along with the sheet. We drove 8 miles to this rich suburb in the county through a run down street. She told me how the delivery her and Silas did 2 days ago was awful for the wedding because the organizers did not realize how little space they had as compared to the sheer amount of food ordered. We got there and were amazed at the 2 story brick house, it had a fancy backyard with some deer props out in the lawn, a long table of old ladies was sitting there and we helped setup when we realized on the drive back we forgot the cookies in a text from the Noahmusic2009 guy, I got back and half did the floor despite me thinking that Jill would have done it. I then decided to buy some new sauce they have and some expensive pasta. I asked the Noahmusic2009 guy if it was good and he told me he had it on these ramen-like noodles. The guy behind me quipped that they should put their stuff on my card, but I sadly can’t extend my employee discount. I went into the back to grab some expired food, including burrata filling and some yogurt. As I was walking up to the office, Silas had some capocollo that had an expiration date today and offered it back, I asked for it and took it. I took the bus home and then watched some more Star Wars YouTube videos. I should re-watch the Star Wars movie series. I took a shower and then went to bed.
Song of the Day: I’ll Wait - Van Halen (1984)
4 weeks ago#52828
July 15th, 2025: Another day of volunteering today. Breakfast was me finishing off the third box of cereal that I had and also the half gallon of the 1% milk, I realized my laundry bin was getting filled up with dirty laundry. But I had to get dressed for my job. I grabbed the least dirty set of dress pants and a button-up red, white, light blue, and blue shirt, I went out with my ID and my keys. When I got there I got in and went to my office to set up. At this time I noticed that I did not have my wallet on me so I panicked until I remembered not bumping into anybody. I spotted Zach A wearing a purple suit jacket and pants, I complemented him on his outfit. I set up the coffee machine and tried to work it by plugging it and unplugging it multiple times before it got working. I went back to my place and booted up my personal laptop and wrote in my blog for a short bit before I got paranoid and just closed it down. Seth M came over to my workspace and told me:
“Hey just to let you know, we have a meeting at 9:30am for the Microsoft thing in the meeting room.”
I listened to him and opened my work computer and waited until 9:30am came around and I went into the meeting room. I ended up sitting across from Ahwahn and next to the Latinx lady, Zach A, and the CEO were also there to discuss Seth M’s project. He went over the website he made in VSCode with all the html pages with relatively little css pages. He demonstrated the entire thing and there was this example family he gave for these children of Abdul Mohammad and Fatima Mohammad (no middle names), they had 3 kids, and the youngest was Aisha Mohammad, she was 9 years old. I am so glad I didn’t burst out laughing there. Early on into the presentation, the Daeguite and her mentor came to the glass door to see if it was open, I waved to them and Ahwahn quietly laughed and I saw her mouth:
“Gemerson!”
I just continued watching. I remembered that I had left my full water bottle where I was sitting yesterday and I went over to grab it. I brought it back to my spot at the meeting table and drank it all. We signed this card for an employee’s baby shower. I was given by the second newest employee (photographer one) a picture of the newest employee with her name and job title. I fired up the C50 card printer and printed the back side before flipping it over, rubbing the static and dust particles off of it, and then printing the back side. The first time it didn’t accept the printed card on top and just took from the bottom for the first time (I threw that one away) and the second time it made a weird loud sound for no reason. I went over to the newest employee’s room and brought the card to her. The Daeguite clocked out and didn’t say bye to me. I remembered the Archbishop was coming to my mass tomorrow so I texted Father Malachi if I could be a lector for the mass, I found his phone number online by the way. No response. I would have to depend on the free food for my lunch. A piece of sourdough bread and a piece of chicken from another coworker who had brought a tray filled with it. I drank some water. I accidentally joined a meeting for me despite it being on my calendar, I asked and the CEO confirmed it was false. In between the false meeting and the true meeting, I saw Zarith C and the younger Ukrainian woman talk about a dress, also her sister Shima C, Tia, and a third person were talking in a language I couldn’t understand. Seth M and I worked on setting up a Microsoft surface laptop for an employee. Once he went on lunch and got some food back, he ate with his friend. I then went to the aesthetically uninspired white meeting room because Staples was talking with this woman in the library meeting room talking about who even knows. I hopped on and I was so bored out of my mind that I went on the Wikipedia page for Kiryas Joel, and this planned murder busted by the FBI. The meeting went from 2:30pm to 3:30pm when we finally got off. I did nothing for the rest of the day until I clocked out and caught the bus at 4:26pm. It was crowded and this young Black woman with dyed green hair wouldn’t let anybody sit next to her. There were these two Arabs facetiming someone on loudspeaker. Eventually someone got up and I sat in this empty two seater. One of the Arabs asked me for my seat and I just got so angry I left and went to stand. I got off and it looked like they followed me for minutes until I rushed inside and locked my doors. I got settled in my domicile and proceeded to watch Star Wars Episode I. I found it amazing to re-watch for I am profoundly confused on all the negativity it receives. For dinner I cooked myself up some of the ramen I had with a soft-boiled egg and some carrot and peas mix. I had 1/4th of the bag left so after I enjoyed the ramen. I set my sight on consuming the mix as a snack entirely for myself. I got ready for bed by taking a shower and cleaning the bathroom of all sorts of filth with the sanitizing wipes. I got ready for bed when I recalled my pillowsheet hadn’t been washed in a while and I still possessed acne on my face. I used a dark blue pillow on the couch as my only pillow and then drifted into the realm of slumber.
Song of the Day: Hurdy Gurdy Man - Donovan (1968)
“Hey just to let you know, we have a meeting at 9:30am for the Microsoft thing in the meeting room.”
I listened to him and opened my work computer and waited until 9:30am came around and I went into the meeting room. I ended up sitting across from Ahwahn and next to the Latinx lady, Zach A, and the CEO were also there to discuss Seth M’s project. He went over the website he made in VSCode with all the html pages with relatively little css pages. He demonstrated the entire thing and there was this example family he gave for these children of Abdul Mohammad and Fatima Mohammad (no middle names), they had 3 kids, and the youngest was Aisha Mohammad, she was 9 years old. I am so glad I didn’t burst out laughing there. Early on into the presentation, the Daeguite and her mentor came to the glass door to see if it was open, I waved to them and Ahwahn quietly laughed and I saw her mouth:
“Gemerson!”
I just continued watching. I remembered that I had left my full water bottle where I was sitting yesterday and I went over to grab it. I brought it back to my spot at the meeting table and drank it all. We signed this card for an employee’s baby shower. I was given by the second newest employee (photographer one) a picture of the newest employee with her name and job title. I fired up the C50 card printer and printed the back side before flipping it over, rubbing the static and dust particles off of it, and then printing the back side. The first time it didn’t accept the printed card on top and just took from the bottom for the first time (I threw that one away) and the second time it made a weird loud sound for no reason. I went over to the newest employee’s room and brought the card to her. The Daeguite clocked out and didn’t say bye to me. I remembered the Archbishop was coming to my mass tomorrow so I texted Father Malachi if I could be a lector for the mass, I found his phone number online by the way. No response. I would have to depend on the free food for my lunch. A piece of sourdough bread and a piece of chicken from another coworker who had brought a tray filled with it. I drank some water. I accidentally joined a meeting for me despite it being on my calendar, I asked and the CEO confirmed it was false. In between the false meeting and the true meeting, I saw Zarith C and the younger Ukrainian woman talk about a dress, also her sister Shima C, Tia, and a third person were talking in a language I couldn’t understand. Seth M and I worked on setting up a Microsoft surface laptop for an employee. Once he went on lunch and got some food back, he ate with his friend. I then went to the aesthetically uninspired white meeting room because Staples was talking with this woman in the library meeting room talking about who even knows. I hopped on and I was so bored out of my mind that I went on the Wikipedia page for Kiryas Joel, and this planned murder busted by the FBI. The meeting went from 2:30pm to 3:30pm when we finally got off. I did nothing for the rest of the day until I clocked out and caught the bus at 4:26pm. It was crowded and this young Black woman with dyed green hair wouldn’t let anybody sit next to her. There were these two Arabs facetiming someone on loudspeaker. Eventually someone got up and I sat in this empty two seater. One of the Arabs asked me for my seat and I just got so angry I left and went to stand. I got off and it looked like they followed me for minutes until I rushed inside and locked my doors. I got settled in my domicile and proceeded to watch Star Wars Episode I. I found it amazing to re-watch for I am profoundly confused on all the negativity it receives. For dinner I cooked myself up some of the ramen I had with a soft-boiled egg and some carrot and peas mix. I had 1/4th of the bag left so after I enjoyed the ramen. I set my sight on consuming the mix as a snack entirely for myself. I got ready for bed by taking a shower and cleaning the bathroom of all sorts of filth with the sanitizing wipes. I got ready for bed when I recalled my pillowsheet hadn’t been washed in a while and I still possessed acne on my face. I used a dark blue pillow on the couch as my only pillow and then drifted into the realm of slumber.
Song of the Day: Hurdy Gurdy Man - Donovan (1968)
4 weeks ago#58744
July 16th, 2025: Woke up super early today, like at somewhere around 6:10am but officially got out of bed at 7:20am, I first walked over to this convenience store to buy some milk and cereal but I realized it was just wasting money going there. So instead I hopped on a bus to the grocery store. On the way this Black woman with a red hair thing stared at me like she was going to start yelling. On the bus ride there, it wasn’t crowded but I got into the grocery store and got some Yakult drinks, a box of Kellogg's cereal, a gallon of 2% milk, a half gallon of this Fantastic 4 themed blue-colored berry milk (because the movie is coming out soon), and a container of coffee grounds. I paid above $30 for it and then got to the bus stop. I drank the first bottle of Yakult while waiting for the bus and got on it to ride home, I then got off and took my stuff up to my apartment, encountering a girl in an upper floor apartment. I unloaded and turned on the television while I had cereal with the regular milk. I actually enjoyed the berry milk, but I wished they wouldn’t use so much dye, speaking of dye, why not go back to glass jars of milk, and make them gallon sized, I detest microplastics. Well because I wasn’t going to evangelize with Cliffe and Stuart today, I decided to deal with my dandruff by taking a large round grey metal bowl and added some baking powder and hot water to it and soaked my scalp in it. I had to move my head around a lot to get it all good and then rinse my head. I walked to the laundromat to work on my laundry with my duffel bag packed to the brim with my dirty clothes, I threw in my towel and pillowcases into my duffel bag beforehand and dumped it into the washing machine, I chose extra rinse. I walked around for a few minutes until I had to swap it to the dryer, I found a copper ring that looked like a chain and wore it. I got a can of peach Fanta from the nearby convenience store and waited for a while until the dryer finished. I got it out and found a blue box cutter in my laundry. I walked back home and watched more YouTube and wrote in my blog. At 3:43pm today, a user on the Booru named apollyon (User ID: 5228) messaged me the following:
<forgot actual countries
<how the hell did you make muscular chud variants of all countries but not russia? you should make ones of countries that actually matter idiot
I replied to him:
>I already made Muscular Chud edits of all of the federal divisions of Russia.
I remember thinking about Jordan Peterson’s split down the middle suit where one half was blue and the other half was a deep red. Which made me ponder if I should get a suit designed like the coat of arms for the former municipality of Varpaisjärvi in Finland.
When it was getting near time for me to get ready for Wednesday mass, I got dressed in my suit with no tie and properly shaved with the caffeine aftershave. I packed up my bibles and fliers into my drawstring bang and walked over to the bus stop to get on at 5:27pm. I rode it up and got off. Near the church I saw Staples in an alleyway emptying some stuff into the garbage, so I waved to her and I just heard a:
“Hi!”
From her. I continued walking and got into the dinner place I was the first one in there, I greeted Father Malachi and I saw the chess board with a post it note which read:
<Checkmate in one move, white to move
I set it up to be foolsmate. Malachi was on a call with someone else, so when Cliffe, Stuart, Jeremiah, and a 4th guy came in, they told me to come up to the 3rd floor for liturgy of the hours (but without Stuart) We completed that
and got back down to the much cooler 1st floor. I was dressed up and decided to go to ask Malachi:
“Hey, would you happen to need someone to do the readin-”
“No thanks Gemerson!”
He said it with such disgust that I was just absolutely destroyed mentally. A few more people came in like Jeremiah’s brother and the Catholic center priest, also that Joseph of Port Washington guy was here. I sat at the head of the table and hardly had the energy to talk while I ate. The Keralan came in and I said hi to him. The topic of the music here came up and Stuart complained about how it was too loud, Jeremiah’s brother shared the same sentiment. I went into the actual church and sat in front before moving into line for mass. I was behind Stuart as I saw him write things down in his “Sin list” before a few people went in and out before it was my turn. My penance was to spend a few minutes in front of the Eucharist and pray for those I held hatred towards. I did that and set my phone to not require a passcode to make recording the Archbishop’s homily easier. I had this one clearly non-denominational sit behind me because she was somehow enjoying the songs. Also it is my Rapper Cousin’s 33rd birthday today. Father Malachi told us that the Archbishop wouldn’t be here tonight but we did mass as normal and got out for the social, Stuart told me he was a part of a cult called the 2-by-2’s and that they were nontrinitarian heretics. I tried talking to others but they were talking to each other with no room for me. Sideburns was there and his cousin, we shook hands, also the woman with parents from Kerala was there yet I did not talk to her. I saw Elizabeth and then this one girl I met on Juneteenth, she told me she would send me a video from her Latin class but never did (although I never pressed her on it) so I called her by a different (beginning with the same letter) to make her feel embarrassed. I left. I hated everybody there. I hated how they ignored me, how they view me as less than human, how they mock my interior of the mind battles for laughs, I hate how they intentionally sabotage my attempts to heal and get in their good graces. I walked home and got on the bus with no air conditioning at 9:22pm, At 10:58pm I was getting super sleepy while writing in my own blog. I completed it and published it. I went to sleep.
Song of the Day: Golden Brown - The Stranglers (1982)
<forgot actual countries
<how the hell did you make muscular chud variants of all countries but not russia? you should make ones of countries that actually matter idiot
I replied to him:
>I already made Muscular Chud edits of all of the federal divisions of Russia.
I remember thinking about Jordan Peterson’s split down the middle suit where one half was blue and the other half was a deep red. Which made me ponder if I should get a suit designed like the coat of arms for the former municipality of Varpaisjärvi in Finland.
When it was getting near time for me to get ready for Wednesday mass, I got dressed in my suit with no tie and properly shaved with the caffeine aftershave. I packed up my bibles and fliers into my drawstring bang and walked over to the bus stop to get on at 5:27pm. I rode it up and got off. Near the church I saw Staples in an alleyway emptying some stuff into the garbage, so I waved to her and I just heard a:
“Hi!”
From her. I continued walking and got into the dinner place I was the first one in there, I greeted Father Malachi and I saw the chess board with a post it note which read:
<Checkmate in one move, white to move
I set it up to be foolsmate. Malachi was on a call with someone else, so when Cliffe, Stuart, Jeremiah, and a 4th guy came in, they told me to come up to the 3rd floor for liturgy of the hours (but without Stuart) We completed that
and got back down to the much cooler 1st floor. I was dressed up and decided to go to ask Malachi:
“Hey, would you happen to need someone to do the readin-”
“No thanks Gemerson!”
He said it with such disgust that I was just absolutely destroyed mentally. A few more people came in like Jeremiah’s brother and the Catholic center priest, also that Joseph of Port Washington guy was here. I sat at the head of the table and hardly had the energy to talk while I ate. The Keralan came in and I said hi to him. The topic of the music here came up and Stuart complained about how it was too loud, Jeremiah’s brother shared the same sentiment. I went into the actual church and sat in front before moving into line for mass. I was behind Stuart as I saw him write things down in his “Sin list” before a few people went in and out before it was my turn. My penance was to spend a few minutes in front of the Eucharist and pray for those I held hatred towards. I did that and set my phone to not require a passcode to make recording the Archbishop’s homily easier. I had this one clearly non-denominational sit behind me because she was somehow enjoying the songs. Also it is my Rapper Cousin’s 33rd birthday today. Father Malachi told us that the Archbishop wouldn’t be here tonight but we did mass as normal and got out for the social, Stuart told me he was a part of a cult called the 2-by-2’s and that they were nontrinitarian heretics. I tried talking to others but they were talking to each other with no room for me. Sideburns was there and his cousin, we shook hands, also the woman with parents from Kerala was there yet I did not talk to her. I saw Elizabeth and then this one girl I met on Juneteenth, she told me she would send me a video from her Latin class but never did (although I never pressed her on it) so I called her by a different (beginning with the same letter) to make her feel embarrassed. I left. I hated everybody there. I hated how they ignored me, how they view me as less than human, how they mock my interior of the mind battles for laughs, I hate how they intentionally sabotage my attempts to heal and get in their good graces. I walked home and got on the bus with no air conditioning at 9:22pm, At 10:58pm I was getting super sleepy while writing in my own blog. I completed it and published it. I went to sleep.
Song of the Day: Golden Brown - The Stranglers (1982)
Biznessmann
SNCA Is my name and my game
4 weeks ago#58750
Nietzsche spoke of this
4 weeks ago#58758
July 17th, 2025: Woke up early this morning but I had not much to do for a while, I browsed my phone and got a Snapchat message from the blue haired woman saying that she got back home to Illinois at 2:00am in the morning. I got out of bed and made myself a bowl of cereal and some coffee with the coconut flavored creamer, I am disappointed in how it turned out to taste still. I went on KiwiFarms to post for a bit and wrote in my blog for today before I had to head to work at 9:45pm, the bus ride there was quite normal and when I walked in, I was greeted by Bill shouting:
“Hey Gemerson!”
I said hi back and saw my task list was pretty moderate today. When I went up to get a walkie-talkie, I said hi to the Italian lady but saw there were none on the charger which holds 6 of them. I had to do the beverage cooler and stock the shelves. So I got to that. While I was working on the first half of the beverage cooler, I found out today the Israeli “Defense” Force had a tank “accidentally” turn towards a Catholic church and “accidentally” fired on it which “accidentally” killed 3 people and injured plenty of others. It was a church that criticized Benjamin Netanyahu and his war so someone in the IDF obviously ordered the attack. I just continued with stocking until I got down with that and went to my second task of the day which was the three window cleaning tasks. Tiffany was here early in the morning so I saw her today instead of fAsherah, she was, once again, wearing overall-shorts incorrectly, I had to joke about it and she gave me snark. I worked on wiping the windows down, halfway through that, I went to the back and got offered a piece of dough by Bill and ate it. While I was back up front, Anne was back along with her replacement and I told her:
“Glad to see you’re back!”
She replied to me:
“So you missed me?”
“Yeah I did.”
I asked her about any deliveries today and she said there were none. I saw that Matt was here today and so were some others, when I was outside cleaning the windows, I saw this one bug in the window and decided to spray it with my foamer spay for a bit of a laugh, the torch bug then fell down and was clearly struggling, the bug made me feel so sad about what I had done that I walked back inside to grab some water to firstly drink out of and then drip some on the bug to get the white foam off of it, I remember that pesticide would work by being ingested by the bugs while it was cleaning itself. I felt my guilt go away when I went to check on it later and saw it not struggling. For lunch I ordered a caprese sandwich, an Arizona green tea, and a small bag of sea salt and vinegar chips (fun fact: they get their flavoring from sodium diacetate) and went to the break room to eat my lunch sitting across from Jill. Jill was on her phone watching TikToks at a noticeable volume so I just got up and sat next to the Noahmusic2009 guy. Much better and quieter there. I got off of my break and continued on some more tasks I had assigned, At 1:22pm I replied to James the Great’s story which said:
<I decided not to pay 50$ for yet another gfuel
<That’s like the price of a good figure bro
With:
>Why do they cost so much
He replied:
<High quality
I continued with my tasks when I went on Snapchat again to see that James the Great had posted again:
<I might as well become the first American to marry Hatsune Miku
I didn’t reply to that one. On my first break I had already completed all of my tasks and I bought some white chocolate bark with Oreo crumbs in it and ate a few. Gave Tiffany the evil eye because I felt like it while she was coming back from her 4th bathroom break in her 4 hour shift. I saw Sabrina while she was on her break and offered her half of a bark piece. She first checked the bottom of the package to make sure it didn’t have any nuts in it, she half of the last one and enjoyed it. This was around the time I started on closings tasks, I first scrubbed the backroom floor, completing that at 6:45pm, next was cleaning the breakroom then the bathrooms, next emptying the garbages, facing the store, and finally taking down the stuff for where all the customers eat, I saw Jill’s friend get picked up by this Mexican guy who dressed like a cholo who picked her up in a old car which had something dragging along as it ran. I finally got out of work and waited for the bus. While I was browsing Instagram and saw a post on Khadija’s story which looked like it might have related to her grandma being dead. I asked her and she said that she died 2 days ago. I expressed my condolences to her and then got on the bus. I got off the bus and walked over to my apartment building, I got in and walked up before turning on the television to watch some YouTube, I played some Orthodox chants from a 8 hour, 37 minute, and 51 second long video, on the television because searching up Catholic chats would have taken me far longer to do, scurrying from one letter to another when the Orthodox one was already in my suggested. Don’t worry guys I won’t become Eastern Orthodox, I don’t live near an Orthodox church but I would probably go with Georgian Orthodox. I ate some capocollo and then had dinner and the fiber orange juice mix, I took a shower later and debated telling the peach fuzz girl about the Archbishop thing but it was too late so that would come off weird, so I went to sleep.
Song of the Day: Flesh For Fantasy - Billy Idol (1984)
“Hey Gemerson!”
I said hi back and saw my task list was pretty moderate today. When I went up to get a walkie-talkie, I said hi to the Italian lady but saw there were none on the charger which holds 6 of them. I had to do the beverage cooler and stock the shelves. So I got to that. While I was working on the first half of the beverage cooler, I found out today the Israeli “Defense” Force had a tank “accidentally” turn towards a Catholic church and “accidentally” fired on it which “accidentally” killed 3 people and injured plenty of others. It was a church that criticized Benjamin Netanyahu and his war so someone in the IDF obviously ordered the attack. I just continued with stocking until I got down with that and went to my second task of the day which was the three window cleaning tasks. Tiffany was here early in the morning so I saw her today instead of fAsherah, she was, once again, wearing overall-shorts incorrectly, I had to joke about it and she gave me snark. I worked on wiping the windows down, halfway through that, I went to the back and got offered a piece of dough by Bill and ate it. While I was back up front, Anne was back along with her replacement and I told her:
“Glad to see you’re back!”
She replied to me:
“So you missed me?”
“Yeah I did.”
I asked her about any deliveries today and she said there were none. I saw that Matt was here today and so were some others, when I was outside cleaning the windows, I saw this one bug in the window and decided to spray it with my foamer spay for a bit of a laugh, the torch bug then fell down and was clearly struggling, the bug made me feel so sad about what I had done that I walked back inside to grab some water to firstly drink out of and then drip some on the bug to get the white foam off of it, I remember that pesticide would work by being ingested by the bugs while it was cleaning itself. I felt my guilt go away when I went to check on it later and saw it not struggling. For lunch I ordered a caprese sandwich, an Arizona green tea, and a small bag of sea salt and vinegar chips (fun fact: they get their flavoring from sodium diacetate) and went to the break room to eat my lunch sitting across from Jill. Jill was on her phone watching TikToks at a noticeable volume so I just got up and sat next to the Noahmusic2009 guy. Much better and quieter there. I got off of my break and continued on some more tasks I had assigned, At 1:22pm I replied to James the Great’s story which said:
<I decided not to pay 50$ for yet another gfuel
<That’s like the price of a good figure bro
With:
>Why do they cost so much
He replied:
<High quality
I continued with my tasks when I went on Snapchat again to see that James the Great had posted again:
<I might as well become the first American to marry Hatsune Miku
I didn’t reply to that one. On my first break I had already completed all of my tasks and I bought some white chocolate bark with Oreo crumbs in it and ate a few. Gave Tiffany the evil eye because I felt like it while she was coming back from her 4th bathroom break in her 4 hour shift. I saw Sabrina while she was on her break and offered her half of a bark piece. She first checked the bottom of the package to make sure it didn’t have any nuts in it, she half of the last one and enjoyed it. This was around the time I started on closings tasks, I first scrubbed the backroom floor, completing that at 6:45pm, next was cleaning the breakroom then the bathrooms, next emptying the garbages, facing the store, and finally taking down the stuff for where all the customers eat, I saw Jill’s friend get picked up by this Mexican guy who dressed like a cholo who picked her up in a old car which had something dragging along as it ran. I finally got out of work and waited for the bus. While I was browsing Instagram and saw a post on Khadija’s story which looked like it might have related to her grandma being dead. I asked her and she said that she died 2 days ago. I expressed my condolences to her and then got on the bus. I got off the bus and walked over to my apartment building, I got in and walked up before turning on the television to watch some YouTube, I played some Orthodox chants from a 8 hour, 37 minute, and 51 second long video, on the television because searching up Catholic chats would have taken me far longer to do, scurrying from one letter to another when the Orthodox one was already in my suggested. Don’t worry guys I won’t become Eastern Orthodox, I don’t live near an Orthodox church but I would probably go with Georgian Orthodox. I ate some capocollo and then had dinner and the fiber orange juice mix, I took a shower later and debated telling the peach fuzz girl about the Archbishop thing but it was too late so that would come off weird, so I went to sleep.
Song of the Day: Flesh For Fantasy - Billy Idol (1984)
Biznessmann
SNCA Is my name and my game
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